12:27 AM
Sunday, 27 May, 2012
Midnight. My birthday just ended ): It was such an ordinary Saturday for me, staying at home, studying for Chinese (okay more of slacking), going to grandma's house, coming home.
The only difference was that there were more peopling texting me, writing on my Facebook wall, and tweeting me. And not forgetting the birthday cake from my parents. (:
Quite expected it to be normal anyw. Afterall, Chinese Os is tomorrow (cos now is alr Sunday hahaha). Hoping that i'd get an A2 at least this time . Or else i'd have wasted 5 months studying Chinese.
Alright enough of O level Chinese. I wanna thank the following people for wishing me HAPPYBIRTHDAY:
Special little words to those who texted me wishes :b
- Chenting! Thank you for giving me a gift as well as being the first person to wish me happy birthday hahahaha. Love the card. <3
- Jia Wei! Don't really count you as the first person to wish me , since you used the "if you read this before Saturday, read this in 20min's time" tactic HAHA. I'll take it as the second person alright . Hehehehe. And thank you for the movie ticket and arcade money!(x
- KAKAK. I LOVE YOU TO BITS <3 Hope you're doing well with your husband, praying he won't be a lazybum like the first idiot ! You deserve the best kak. <3
- Shane ! Thanks for singing a happybirthday song over text HAHA:D
- Shermon! Never expected you to text me, really glad you did. Never talked to you in a longlong time already. (:
- Belicia ! Your birthday is the easiest to remember HAHA. Cos it's just one day ahead of mine!
- Sabrina! YAY YOU GOT TWITTER AND WHATSAPP HEHE. :D
- Manqin ! Totally love your company. :D You're awesomeawesomeawesome.
- Mummy! Love you! <3 sorry i don't use Line anymore so i didn't see your cake picture HAHA!
- Dionis! Thankyou for all the laughter and joy you've brought to my life for being in my cluster hahaha! Your craziness never fails to make me laugh and turn red. Hehe. :D
- Sandra! YOU AND YOUR CRAZY LAUGHTER HAHA. I can hear you and Shane laughing from afar you know!! Thanks for the wish anyway ! :D
- Steven! Thank you for talking to me occasionally still, even though you're alr in a different school! Hahaha and i hope you'll get over Mildred soon and your misery will end yeah. (:
On Twitter:
- Stephen!
- Adiel!
- Ryan!
- Qamarina aka Calamari!
- Gordon!
- Jia Jing!
- Julia!
- Tassri!
- Jeremy (Thia) !
- Su'aidah!
- Selvin Ng, the guy who tweets me but idk him at all LOL
- Zhuojing!
- Yanhui!
- Ashwin!
- Tinghan!
Aaaaaand of course, then people who wished me on Facebook!(: It's kinda impossible to list them all here, the blog post would be too long alr HAHA. It is alr very long, in fact. So i shall stop here. Thank you all and goodnight! (:
10:27 PM
Friday, 11 May, 2012
Hi there! It's been nearly two months, i apologise. But i do have a valid reason! I have been studying.
Yes, studying.
But studying stupidly such that i'm so gonna fail majority of my subjects. I am not kidding. I'd be suprised if i pass my Prelim's Amath, Chem, Physics. And i'd be surprised if i get at least a B for combined humanities and Bio.
Maybe i can get an A2 for Math? I don't know. Maybe not, maybe just a B3-4. But anyway, my results are surely gonna be real bad on the whole for this Prelims.
Somehow i have this feeling that for once, i'm gonna hit 30 for my L1R5. I'm serious. Think about it, lets say this is my result:
English - B3
Chinese - B3
Math - A2
Amath -
F9
Biology - C5
Physics -
F9
Chemistry -
F9
Combined Humanities (SS and elect Geog) - C5
Then my L1R5 would be....
33. Well done, Cheryl. Well done. -claps-
Remember how you got an L1R5 of SEVEN when you were in Sec 1 ? Geez.
Oh and i realised something. In the first few years of primary school, i had always done well. All band 1s. Until P4 or something, then i had a Band 2. And then P6 was my worst. Hence i got a mere 232 for PSLE. It may seem high in SHSS, but being in PRPS, in 6A (top class), that score was
pathetic. I was probably the last in class.
And now, Sec 1, L1R5 of 7. Sec 4? High chance of 30+ . Yes, sucks real bad. Doing your worst when it's the year of the national examination.
Gosh. Cheryl you're so gonna be a failure in life when you start working man. I don't think you can even get to university.
11:12 PM
Friday, 30 March, 2012
Today, i was playing Truth or Dare with Dio and Gordon, while waiting for Choir to start. One of the questions i had was something along the lines of "Do you love anyone? Who?"
I said no. Dio and Gordon didn't believe me, they kept asking if i was sure and they emphasized that it was TRUTH or Dare. At that point of time, i just kept saying no. I really wasn't lying.
But their persistent are-you-sure questions made me confused again.
A few days/weeks ago, i told myself that i shall not like him anymore. Claire knows, i told her the same thing. It feels like i don't like him anymore, cos i never harbour any thoughts of getting back with him someday. But at the same time, i know he has this special place in my heart. Its reallyreally small, so small i feel like i can just neglect it. But its still big enough for me to know its there.
It feels like i am finally getting over him, its like i don't really bother about him anymore.
But i know, deep down, i still have this hope that we'd be friends. I don't want us to be like that, total strangers. We don't even say hi to each other. Its horrible. I hate how relationships ruin friendships.
I shall not think about him or related stuffs, its not the time to. O'levels this year. Prelims are in about 4 weeks, and i'm pretty much screwed cos so far all i've revised is Physics chapter 1 (that simple topic of unit measurement) and Chem Kinetic Particle Theory. Thats it.
Just praying real hard that i'll stop procrastinating anymore and manage my time well so i have more time to revise. I need to do well.
P.S
400th post, yayyyy (x
10:54 PM
Monday, 12 March, 2012
Was looking at the whole list of archives. And i realised, i have been blogging since 2008! And i also realised, i blogged at least once a month. Cos there is an archive for every single month since i started this blog! :D
Yaaaaay!
Okay i don't see any reason why i should be celebrating.
Well anyway. Prelim 1 is in 6 weeks' time. I feel panicky, but i really don't feel like mugging . It just feels too early. I know if i don't start soon i'll just flunk my prelims, but i just can't motivate myself to start studying. And its studying from scratch, which is worse. Its not like common test, whereby you just study certain chapters of a subject.
What am i saying. Obviously prelims can't be compared with common tests omgosh -_-
Jiawei said he's gonna start studying tomorrow onwards. Maybe i should do the same. IF i cann get myself to ._. I have to study, do homework, AND housework. Will i be able to cope?
Or will i just die there?
I don't know. Guess i'll just have to give it a shot.
11:54 AM
Sunday, 19 February, 2012
Just came home from the airport..
Kakak just left. She's leaving for good, probably only coming back after two years when my bro goes for NS.
I was so upset, i cried in the airport. :'( She cried too..
Actually ever since Janurary (when she first said that she was gonna leave), i've been silently crying. Everytime i thought of her leaving, tears would start welling up in my eyes. But i'd control. I'd either control, or just go toilet and wash my face.
Only yesterday night, when i got into bed, and saw her lying down (she wasn't asleep yet), i thought, this would be the last time she's gonna sleep beside me..then i started crying again. She heard my loud sniffs, and knew i was crying. While trying to comfort me, she herself cried.
Sigh, 16 years of taking care of me, taking care of the family, and now she's leaving. Of course i'd cry. She's like a second mummy to me.
Tbh, i'm starting to tear up while typing this alr haha.
Just hope i wouldn't randomly think of her during school hours and start breaking down in school. Gonna be really embarrassing...I need to constantly do stuffs to get those thoughts out of my mind.
2 years...i will wait for you Kakak. :') Must keep in contact, okay? (:
I love you <3
10:29 PM
Wednesday, 15 February, 2012
Nooooooooo Gordon deleted his blog ): Now the only existing Aviary blog is mine, sigh.
#foreveralone
1:48 PM
Sunday, 5 February, 2012
Today's the 5th of February. 3 years ago, i was just this lil kid who had no one else in her mind except -bleep- . It started off so well, but then ended soon on 23rd April. However, this lil kid didn't give up. This lil kid still feels the same now. But -bleep- doesn't even know. -bleep- even ignores this lil kid.
Sigh i don't understand why this can go on for so long. I don't even know when it'll end. It will, for sure, but i just don't know when. And i know it would end for sure, cos its just one-sided. And i'm 99% sure -bleep- doesn't feel the same way i do. Cos if he feels the same way i do, he wouldn't have ignored me. Oh well.
On a brighter note, its International Kissing Nutella Day!(: okay actually its International Kissing Day and World Nutella Day , but i thought putting them together would be kinda funny. So yeah happy both celebrations everyone!
Now on a sad note again.. School's giving us remedials all at one go. Which means we're gonna stay back almost everyday. Lets see...
Monday - English.
Tuesday - Choir.
Wednesday - Chinese.
Thursday - Elect Geog and SS(luckily i'm not down for this cos Mrs Tan's good enough), alternating Thursdays.
Friday - Choir.
I forgot where Science remedial fits in, oops.
See how great Sec 4 life is? Juniors out there, don't mock me. Cos you'll be experience all these someday.
Still looking for a female Amath private tutor. Hopefully can find one.
P.S 2 weeks till my kakak leaves me... Sigh :'(
