♥ CHERYL;

Gordon's blog is gone ):

2012-02-15T22:29:00.003+08:00

Nooooooooo Gordon deleted his blog ): Now the only existing Aviary blog is mine, sigh.

#foreveralone

5th Feb.

2012-02-05T13:48:00.001+08:00

Today's the 5th of February. 3 years ago, i was just this lil kid who had no one else in her mind except -bleep- . It started off so well, but then ended soon on 23rd April. However, this lil kid didn't give up. This lil kid still feels the same now. But -bleep- doesn't even know. -bleep- even ignores this lil kid.

Sigh i don't understand why this can go on for so long. I don't even know when it'll end. It will, for sure, but i just don't know when. And i know it would end for sure, cos its just one-sided. And i'm 99% sure -bleep- doesn't feel the same way i do. Cos if he feels the same way i do, he wouldn't have ignored me. Oh well.

On a brighter note, its International Kissing Nutella Day!(: okay actually its International Kissing Day and World Nutella Day , but i thought putting them together would be kinda funny. So yeah happy both celebrations everyone!

Now on a sad note again.. School's giving us remedials all at one go. Which means we're gonna stay back almost everyday. Lets see...
Monday - English.
Tuesday - Choir.
Wednesday - Chinese.
Thursday - Elect Geog and SS(luckily i'm not down for this cos Mrs Tan's good enough), alternating Thursdays.
Friday - Choir.

I forgot where Science remedial fits in, oops.

See how great Sec 4 life is? Juniors out there, don't mock me. Cos you'll be experience all these someday.

Still looking for a female Amath private tutor. Hopefully can find one.

P.S 2 weeks till my kakak leaves me... Sigh :'(

-bleep- !

2012-01-28T18:46:00.002+08:00

Decided to bleep out his name from the previous posts, in case my parents happen to come across my blog.
Idk how they'd ever come across it, but oh well, better safe than sorry right?

Anything can happen. Just like how someone blog-hopped and saw everything, oh gosh. Luckily it wasn't my parents or bro .

New blogskin doesn't work on my phone! ):

2012-01-27T19:45:00.001+08:00

Argh i just realised my new blogskin doesn't work on the Blogger app on my phone ): i can't scroll down in the box containing all the stuff, i can only scroll down the entire page /:

Oh well..

P.S
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZHUOJINGGGGGG! <3 You're officially 16 YAY! Must meet up soon okayokay? :D Even though i know you wouldn't be seeing this. /:

Updating links section.

2012-01-25T22:34:00.002+08:00

Decided to update the links section of my blog. Whichever person deleted their blog, i'd remove the link. Whoever relinked, i'll relink. Whoever made their blog private :( , i'd still put the link there. Even if they don't use their blogs anymore but it still exists, i'll keep the link. So lets see how many have deleted their blogs...

Pasirians: From 29 links, i've reduced them to...16.
Hildans: From 22 links, i've reduced them to...16 also. O:
Family/Other friends: From 7 links, i've reduced them to...4.
Finally, Others/Shared Blogs: From 8 links, i've reduced them to...4 also.

Even among the 16,16,4 and 4 (wow all repeated numbers), less than 5 blogs are still alive.

Conclusion: Blogger, overall, isn't alive anymore.

So yeah bye. (:

P.S
你们都知道了，干吗不讲一声！): 害到我一直觉得那么内疚..

Sigh.

2012-01-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

死心了。

RYAN RETWEETED MEEEEEEEEE!

2012-01-23T11:13:00.000+08:00

OH . MY. GOSH. RYAN HIGA JUST MADE MY DAY!

CHECK THAT OUT! HE RETWEETED ME! :D

What i tweeted was this:
Hahahaha the accent @therealryanhiga made is hilarious ! "Ohh brah!" hahaha do they really talk like that ??http://youtu.be/zUj5t4YevDs

AND THEN HE RETWEETED IT! YAAAAAYYYYYY <33 !

He just made my first day of CNY better than ever. In fact, its the best CNY yet! :'D

Sooooo darn happy right now.
Okay i gotta go now. CNY family photo-taking time. Bye!

And HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!(:

New blogskin.

2012-01-20T17:58:00.001+08:00

Just changed my blogskin. Looks not bad to me.

I actually wanted some emo one saying some lovey-dovey (okay maybe not really) stuff, but i couldn't find one that had the message i wanted. Tried googling on how to create your own blogskin, but seems too chim for my simple mind to understand .

And then i stumbled upon this blogskin (i forgot how) . And decided to try it out.
So yeah here it is. (:

Broken.

2012-01-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

We.
Officially.
Broke up.
Yesterday.

The end.

P.S
Maybe this is better . I shall just focus on my studies without relationships disturbing me.
And secretly like -bleep- at the same time.

Hildan Torch.

2012-01-15T17:11:00.001+08:00

So last Friday was Hildan Torch. Shane had to carry the school flag for the march-in of the CCA colours , so she couldn't hold Choir flag. Hence, i had to stand in for her and hold the Choir flag. On the first rehearsal , we were given our places to stand. Mr Lian read out the names of those standing on the right first. My name wasn't read. Then, he continued with the left side.

In my mind, i was wondering, who will be the one in front of me, the one whom i'll be following their footsteps?

Then Mr Lian read: "Badminton, Hockey, Volleyball boys, Hildan Chorale..."

Oh. Shit.

Those were the only words in my mind back then, i remember. I'm standing behind -bleep-! -BLEEP- !

I didn't know if it was a good thing or not. One part of me was jumping for joy, being able to be so close to someone i loved since Sec 1 (kinda). But another part of me was all upset. Why did i have to stand behind him? I'm trying so so hard to forget him, and this had to be such a perfect chance to make me fall in love with him all over again. Its not that we'd talk, but to be honest, standing behind him and watching him, would kinda make me go crazy already. I was hoping i wouldn't see him so often anymore, so i could slowly forget him. But i just had to be put behind him. Oh well. /:

So yeah, just as i predicted, we never exchanged any words. But i knew, deep down, i was hoping he'd talk to me. Not to ask for something, but to talk to me casually like a friend. We've never done that since Sec1..

Its okay, i told myself. Just love him silently like you have been doing since Sec1.

So everything went well, i didn't make a fool of myself in front of him and stuff on that day itself. Flagbearing was for CCA councillors, so me being the only non-CCA councillor there was pretty pathetic. But i had Sam, so i was contented. Anyw Sam said she didn't really have friends in the council too, and my presence was great for her too. (:

Oh and just before we marched in, Sam actually told me, "you still like -bleep- right!!"

Ohmygah. How did she know?! No one knows! ): i asked her how she knew, she said she just knew. She could feel it, or something like that. Oh gosh. I thought everyone thought i liked -rawr- .

So i guess she's the only one who knows the truth.

During our break after the entering of the CCA colours (we only had to march in and march out at the end), i sat opposite Sam and watched her gobble down her dinner. Then she told me to turn around and look at the sky, cos it was beautiful. I turned and looked. Then i realised -bleep- was sitting right at a spot such that looking at the sky was also looking straight at him. I turned back, pretending nothing happened, and just agreed that the sky looked beautiful. Then Sam started giggling, and it was then i realised she actually did that on purpose. ): then she kept asking me to turn back and look again, but i refused cos i knew she was teasin me. Then she was like, "hahahahahahaha why your face so red!" ))): so mean aiyo.

After Hildan Torch, we waited for our parents together. Then , i asked her if i was being annoying by holding on to him for four years. She said no la. That was kinda comforting i guess? /: i asked her if he knows that i still like him. She said, "i don't think so?" okay, even more comforting.

So yeap thats it about my little experience of this year's Hildan Torch. I'm happy actually. I liked watching him from behind. I'm contented. (:

Ohhhhh! One more thing. Last Tuesday was the CCA Colours presentation too. Shane had to announce the awards stuff, so again i had to stand in for her. No, i wasn't standing beside -bleep-. Not so lucky haha.

It was unfortunate. I stood too long and didn't wriggle my toes (to allow blood flow), so i felt really dizzy after. I couldn' t even stand anymore, so i told Shane and she 扶 me to the benches which they set up for the photo-taking. I was actually alr sick to begin with, i was sick since Friday. In the end i was brought to the P.E room. At that time, all i could think of was, did -bleep- see me like that? If he did, was he concerned about me? when Shane came in, i asked her, "were everyone asking about me?" She said, "yeah didn't you hear the noise they made outside?" but that wasn't what i wanted to hear. I wanted her to say something like, "yeah, especially -bleep- ! He kept asking what happened and if you were fine." ah, what was i thinking. Shane doesn't know i still love him so much. And why would he bother? He probably thought nothing of it. i was then brought to the sick bay. I lay there until 9.15am before going back to class. The whole time i was there i kept thinking of him. If only he could come visit me, i wished. But nah, that just remained as a wish that never came true.

Now that all the events are over, i guess i won't get to see him and be so close to him anymore. Sigh.

P.S
Simple Plan is in Singapore already!! Their concert's tonight, which would be a great thing if i could go. Now i just feel disappointed. ): sigh, shall just wait for their vlog on their trip to Singapore then.

P.P.S
What a long blog post. Didn't realise it was this long. O:

Mind filled with so many thoughts..

2012-01-15T15:33:00.002+08:00

I feel so so so upset right now. So many things running through my mind. So many unhappy thoughts, to be exact.

I'm at a loss, i don't know what to do. I keep thinking about it, like what i should do, when should i do...

I have no one to talk to about this. Even if i have someone, i don't know how to put all my feelings and thoughts into words. When i say it out, it sounds like some simple problem that i could have fixed on my own. But when i'm actually on my own, i have no idea what to do...

What should i do? My blog seems to be the only listener now.
No one reads this blog. No one visits it, except for those tagboard advertisers. Its like, talking to a wall.
But surprisingly, talking to this "wall" seems so much better than talking to my friends.

Why?

I really want to talk to my friends about this. But, who would listen to all these crap? My friends are all those who don't give a shit about relationships. They're those who are free. Free from all these problems . So if i confide in them, i guess they'd just feel like its a shitty thing to hear. Maybe talking to them about things they don't bother about makes them annoyed.

I really don't know who i can talk to. Definitely not the online counsellor our school introduced to us this year. I wouldn't want to tell such secrets so some stranger online .

So many things to talk about.

2012-01-13T00:27:00.001+08:00

Have been thinking about blogging some stuffs recently, but they're all gonna be really long posts so i kinda have no time to post. And i can't do it with my kakak around, i don't want her to see.

So yeah. Shall try find a time to post it through my phone then. Probably when i have nothing to do and i'm not watching my Korean dramas hahahahahaha. Yes, i'm currently quite addicted to Korean dramas. Which is not a good thing for me cos its my O LEVEL YEAR. What the heck am i doing .

And i just went to Ngee Ann Poly's website to look up on Veterinary Bioscience (yes i am quite interested about it and i feel like taking that course) and reading about it just made me more interested in it. Then i saw the entry requirements. Okay, they basically just require at least a pass for English, Math/A-math, and my Sciences. So shooooould be fine. Then, i went on to see the cut-off point for 2011. And then to my horror, i saw a SINGLE DIGIT. FFFFFFFUUUUUUU ITS A 9 !! A FREAKING NINE! My 2011 L1R5 is 21 and L1R2B2 15 i think! How am i supposed to reach 9?!

I feel like crying alr . If i don't take Vetinary Bioscience, idk what course am i gonna take. I am not interested in going JC, seriously. I can't take the stress i think . Gosh.

Guess all i can do i chiong all the way this year (of course not losing all my energy by the second half of the year) and get a good score, so i have more choices open to me. ):

Good luck to myself. Sighhhhhh.

Currently finding an A-math tutor too. Mdm Tey teaches so fast, i can't catch up ): My mind's too slow for her gah.

OH AND, SIMPLE PLAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE REAL SOON! 3 MORE DAYS! But BOO i can't go for their concert! :'( So upset. I shall just wait for their vlog of their tour in Singapore to be uploaded on Youtube then. But its so brief, they'll just talk about where they are now, say some words of the place, then show little snippets of the concert then DONE.

Nothing beats watching them live . Oh well ):

Alright, i gotta sleep now. School tomorrow. G'night!(:

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2012-01-02T13:53:00.002+08:00

A liiiiittle too late, but HAPPY NEW YEAR! ((:

Hope 2012 would be much much better than 2011, cos its an important year for me /: O'Levels, sighhhhhh.

Hope i can get myself to mug for tests/exams.

Finally know the truth..

2011-12-26T14:10:00.000+08:00

So...Dio and Gordon just talked to me (via Whatsapp) about the Claire thing. And yep just as i guessed, she unfollowed me cos i spammed too much . About X-Factor.

Okay i am so so so so so sorry Claire, for disrupting your timeline, flooding it with X-Factor and interrupting your kpop tweets . ):

Now that X-Factor's over, i wonder if you'll follow me back.. Till now you haven't followed me back.

But i don't blame you for anything. I blame myself for spamming Twitter. I just couldn't help it.

I'm sorry, Claire ):

I seek your forgiveness ):

P.S
Thanks Dio and Gordon, for actually awkwardly discussing this matter between yourselves (haha), and telling me about all these. (: Really appreciated. And no, there will never be fights in Aviary. <3

So weak.

2011-12-23T00:12:00.001+08:00

Whats with me these days? I've been feeling so so so upset. I keep thinking that my friends secretly hate me or find me annoying.

Why? Idk, maybe because ever since i realised Claire doesn't follow me on Twitter anymore? I keep thinking that its cos i kept spamming Twitter with Stephen. Maybe she found me annoying, so she stopped following me.

Then i kept telling myself, perhaps its Twitter's problem, cos sometimes it'd anyhow favourite tweets, or unfollow people for you. But then the thought of Claire finding me annoying just keeps ringing in my head. To make sure, i tried checking if she still follows Stephen. Nope, his name isn't in her "following" list. My heart sank. So i guess its not Twitter's problem.

And then there's Gordon too. Somehow i just feel like he finds me just as annoying too. Idk why, i just have that feeling.

Maybe i shouldn't have joined Twitter in the first place. I shouldn't have given in to Gordon, Sandra and Dio's persuasion to join Twitter. I should have listen to Manqin, who was the only one who told me not to create.

Today was the final performace show for X-Factor. I couldn't help but spam Twitter with X-Factor stuffs again (i'm so sorry). It was like as if i was a newscaster for the show, i bet people could tell what was going on by reading their timelines. /:
But yeah anyw, after that i saw Claire's tweet which was: ugh. scrolled a few tweets then *massive scroll*

Guess i pissed her off again eh? And Gordon too. Then Gordon said some bit of fairness, which was that he admitted he spammed alot during MAMA too. When i read that i felt like, "Okay maybe he does understand." but then Claire replied that tweet, something about saying MAMA was only for a day, and there were many people spamming along as well. Then my heart sank. Again.

I know i spammed alot, and it wasn't only for tonight's show. I really apologise for that, i just couldn't help it..

But to be honest, apart from feeling guilty and stuff, another small part of me felt that it was kinda unfair.

People whom i follow, including Claire they all, they do kinda spam my timeline with kpop stuff too. All the retweets, happy birthday _____, or all the performances and stuff. But i didn't complain..

I mean, people have their own likings right? You can spazz for your kpop idols, so shouldn't i have the right to spazz and go crazy for whoever i support on whatever show i'm watching?

I don't know, i really feel so confused right now. What if the entire Aviary has been cheating me all this while, that i am actually being hated by them? I know its wrong for me to doubt them, but i just can control myself. I just keep thinking about that, day and night, night and day. Sometimes i really feel like crying, but i just can't get myself to cry. Its so horrible being unable to cry it all out or just confide in someone. Everything's just bottled inside. Its just so uncomfortable.

How i wish i have a sister, one whom i can confide in, when i have no friends to talk to. Having a bro wouldn't be of much help in this, he'd just shoo me away the moment i step into his room.

I don't feel like facing my friends so soon, i'm afraid the moment i see them, i'd think about all these. Especially Claire. I don't hate her, i'm not angry with her for unfollowing me. I'm just upset with myself. I blame no one but myself for this.

I feel so inferior in front of others. All the pretty, popular, sociable girls. I don't like being in the limelight, but i'd still feel jealous and sometimes i'd just keep thinking, "i wanna be as pretty as them."

Its my self esteem. I have superduper low self esteem and self confidence. I can't help it. I just see no good things about myself. I look terrible, i have no talent, my academics are pretty bad, i have no aspiration, no ambition, no goal. I am just walking aimlessly in life.

I envy those who have a goal in their life. I envy those who are full of self confidence and can do anything they want.

A part of me hope that no one reads this, yet another part of me hopes someone would read this and comfort me or something. But thats just gonna make things worse i guess? I don't know. This would either make it more awkward between my friends and i, or pull us closer and make me feel that at least there is someone out there who cares for me.

I really hope these thoughts will get out of my mind soon.

P.S took me half an hour to type this out. Wow.

New Blogger interface ?

2011-12-18T22:30:00.001+08:00

Trying out the new Blogger interface. Not bad, looks pretty neat. (: Ah well. Not blogging so often anyw, so doesn't really affect me.

Oh i shall test the font size, see if its finally working.

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

CHRISTMAS!

2011-12-18T22:26:00.000+08:00

All i wanna say is,

CHRISTMAS IS COMING! :D

Early Merry Christmas to all, if i don't get to blog on Christmas Day. (:

SIMPLE PLAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!

2011-11-21T23:59:00.002+08:00

So so so sorry for being MIA for more than a month, but i seriously too lazy to blog alr LOL.

Actually i didn't feel like blogging today, but i see the last post so long ago, so i thought maybe i'll just type a few words to update. (:

Weeeeeeell, guess what.

SIMPLE PLAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!! :DDD

When Sandra told me this, i was like "FFFFFFFFYEAAAHHHHHHHH!!!! OMGGGG!"

Then after a long while [ yes, i lagged /: ], i was like, "SHITTTTTTT MONEY PROBLEM."

I asked my parents to sponser me, but they weren't willing to . ): Sandra also facing same problem.

I ever thought of getting a ticket for her as her birthday present [ share costs with Aviary of course ], but if even I can't get my ticket, how am i gonna get a ticket for her? /: I mean, if i can get a ticket for her but i myself can't go, then is she supposed to go alone? Thats like damn mean la. >_> So yeah.... The early bird ticket pricing is gonna be over real soon, i think? Suddenly forgot the date hahahaha. Oh well..maybe i won't get to go ):

I thought i would finally be able to go to a concert hahahahaha . Maaaaaybe i'll just wait till YTF comes to Singapore someday. Maybe by then i'll have enough money to buy my own ticket! :DD

But..who would go with me? ): None of my friends are as crazy over them as me /:

[not saying i'm a crazy fan though hehehehe]

Ah wells. See how luh.

Shall stop here~

Council EXCO outing.

2011-10-14T23:27:00.001+08:00

So....today was Grad Ceremony. As usual, we were on duty. Nothing much about that.

Around 4pm, we had a council EXCO outing, bowling @ Tampines SAFRA. that was okay lahs, nothing much.

After that, we headed to Terminal 2, Changi Airport. For dinner. I tell you, my money all gone alr. ):

We went to Swensens somemore. I wouldn't be able to afford it if Sophie didn't offer to share with me. x.x

Well anyw. The situation was that our group was around.. 15 people big? And you know usually when you have so many orders, there's bound to have maybe 1 or 2 orders left out right. Its normal right?

Well, apparently, Amelia's order was missing this time. She was the first to order, chicken baked rice with extra cheese. Then after that, quite a few more of us ordered chicken baked rice. But inthe end, all of our chicken baked rice came except Amelia's. And yes, she was fuming mad.

She was complaining to the waitress about her order being missing. The waitress then said something about the order not keyed in in their system, so maybe one of us didn't order, but took her serving.

But she just kept harping on the fact that her order was first. /: i mean, the waitress alr said that MAYBE SOMEONE HAD TAKEN HER SERVING BY ACCIDENT. okay. Nevermind.

But she just kept like, throwing tantrums i guess? Sophie asked the waitress if our order could be pushed forward, and i think they did it lahs. But i mean..seriously... /:

And its just a dinner, come on! Why make such a big fuss over it? Whats more is that ours is a big group. And it was reallyreally crowded.

And she was like, "they really shouldn't mess up my order. Especially when i'm hungry. Too bad la, that guy suay lor." argh -.- she nearly wanted to cancel her order after that y'know. Luckily she didn't cancel. Cos its like, make the waitress endure all the scoldings, then we still request to put her order as priority, and now she's saying she's gonna cancel?

Sighhhhhhhh. She totally spoilt my mood after that. Idk why i was so affected )):

Maybe its cos none of my friends have ever been like that. Maybe its cos my FAMILY don't do that either. I grow up amongst people who don't give so much trouble to others. So maybe thats why i'm so annoyed by her actions. Cos i'm just not used to it. I'm not used to complaining. Okay, maybe complaining to friends and stuff yes, but to the waitresses and waiters themselves? Nah. Never, never in my life i guess.

I think i was a little too much though...i think my face really showed how upset i was with her /: i tried, i tried containing it, but i really..i really couldn't get myself to feel happy. /:

Somemore after dinner, Shane left le. So its like Sophie, Hosea and I were the only Sec 3s left. Sophie was the lalang, so she could easily mingle around with the Sec 2s. Hosea..doesn't mingle that much, but at least the Sec 2 guys do talk to him. So i'm like left alone /: only Hosea would talk to me. Not really talk, but just like try and tell me to cheer up. Thanks, but sorry for not cheering up ):

Okay, shall stop ranting here >_> goodnight!

Don't leave council!

2011-10-10T16:54:00.004+08:00

Hosea's in bigbig trouble D:

He broke a school rule and got caught, and now he's in trouble with the teachers D:

He told me that he may be kicked out of council ):

Sighhhhh... just hoping that he'll be given a chance or something /: Afterall its not like he vandalised or something, right... /:

P.S

FINALLY changed my blogskin! Just felt that i should change it hahahaha. Paying more attention to my blog alr hehe. How is it? Currently in love with Simple Plan's music! The next time i change my blogskin, i shall find some YTF blogskin muahahahahahaha. :D But actually, who would notice i changed my blogskin? I doubt anyone visits this page anymore. I think like only 1% of the world still uses Blogger. Even if someone notices, it'll probably be like, a few years later HAHAHA.

Oh wait. I just tweeted about it. /: Oh whatever ahahahaha.

Oh, and i changed the song in my Mixpod too yay. This song is currently stuck in my head too teehee. Its called Moves Like Jagger, by Maroon 5. Love the whistling. <3

EOYS DONE!

2011-10-07T15:54:00.001+08:00

Awesome, EOYs are OVERRRRR! :D
Went out with Shane just after our last paper, Chem. We went to watch Real Steel. It was pretty good, i must say! The technology is wonderful man , LOL.
Oh and we were sitting next to some guy from our school, our batch somemore. Actually it wasn't WE. It was ME sitting next to him . So awkward /: Shane says he and his friend is probably from 3A. Never seen them before though O:

Oh and Chem was pretty tough /: i did manage to complete all the questions, but i have a feeling i've written irrelevant answers HAHA. Oh nevermind, ITS OVER ANYW! :D

Finally, everything can go back to normal. Meeting him in the mornings, texting him more often (i hope!) .. Yay :DD

Alright, feeling sleepy so maybe i'll get some rest now. Afterall i've been mugging (kinda) for the past few days, so sleepy argh. Bye!(x

Social Studies exam.

2011-09-30T18:56:00.001+08:00

My SS was pretty horrible ): idk if i answered the SEQ correctly, i'm reallyreally hoping i didn't 离题 /: didn't manage to finish my last SBQ somemore, 7marks gone alr.

4 more minutes left, i just started reading the two sources.
2 more minutes left, i picked up my highlighter to highlight the differences. But then, i stopped and decided to waste no time x.x
When Ms Toh said "time's up", all i wrote was:

Source E and F are different in saying that _____. Source E states that "______

The first blank was my inference, forgot what it was. x.x second blank was the evidence , i wrote it halfway hence there's no closing inverted commas.

Thats it. Yes thats it /: Thats all i wrote. I don't think i'll have any marks for an inference and half an evidence, will i? >_>

Okay, shall stop here. Bye!

Happybirthday! <3

2011-09-29T15:58:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday to youuuuu! <33 love ya !

English exam was fine, chinese was horrible. As usual, i couldn't keep myself awake x.x i was so drowsy that i couldn't understand the passage, the questions, and when i wrote answers, i could wrote from chinese words to english words!! And the english words are just random words. They're not even related to the question, neither was it in my mind /: my hand just wrote it there LOL. Sigh. Screwed. x.x oh well, hope my other papers will be fine..

EOY exams tomorrow!

2011-09-27T18:03:00.001+08:00

Its Wednesday tomorrow , i can finally spend more time with him in the morninggg!:D <3

Whats more, tomorrow's our first month! x]]

Whats even more, its his birthday the following day but i'm gonna give him his present tomorrow since Thursday he may not meet me! Oooooo i'm sooo exciteddd! :DD

Oh but the sad thing is, tomorrow is the beginning of EOYs ! )): i'm superduper unprepared, so far all i've revised is emath, bio and social studies Dx

I have a feeling i'm gonna fail amaths and physics, sighhhh. Oh well... ):

Alright, gotta go !

P.S
I wonder when i'll ever blog again teehee.

Apps GONE!

2011-09-19T17:36:00.001+08:00

Changed my iPhone for a new set, cos it had battery problems. Before that, my mum helped me sync with my iTunes, so by right everything, my apps, my ringtones, song etc should be back when i sync the new phone right?

WRONG.

Apparently, my apps are all GONE. >:( so i have redownload them all, which 99.99% of them i can't remember. /:
Oh well, hope i can slowly recall everything >_>

Finally told them. (:

2011-09-15T18:05:00.001+08:00

I finally told the rest of them (okay maybe not the rest, but nevermind). Cos i felt too guilty and bad )): my conscience was haunting me. I mean, they're my friends ma, so i should tell them right?

Anyw i trust that they wouldn't spread. So yeah :D phew, i finally feel so much better.

It was so difficult to tell them, i kept hesitating )): but Manqin told me if i don't do it now, it would be harder to find other times to tell them. So yeah...i told them.

IT WAS SO DAMN AWKWARD I TELL YOU. Dx

If only it was just as easy as how i told Manqin. But oh well, no need worry about that alr anyw. ((:

I hope they actually are fine with this.. ):

Past forgotten(;

2011-09-12T00:31:00.001+08:00

I have finally let go of the past. And accepted the present.

I hope i've made the right choice ;)

So far so good, i guess?

Except for the fact that we hardly spend much time together /:

Oh well..goodluck to myself !(: <3

P.S

EOYs coming soon, so screwed for that urgh. -.-

Lazyyy.

2011-08-10T11:10:00.002+08:00

I'm getting more and more lazy to blog. I'm so so sorry /:

OBS!

2011-07-31T23:04:00.001+08:00

Leaving for OBS tomorrow, coming home on Friday.

Hope i'll survive! ):

Tatas :D

OBS, SHIT.

2011-07-24T16:55:00.001+08:00

Its been nearly a month since i last blogged. And i'm blogging now just to reduce the number of days i haven't posted. xD So yeah this blog post is bullshit.

This coming week is Common Tests (URGH) , then following week is OBS.

Sigh, i hope i won't come back black and covered with sandfly and mosquito bites >_>

Oh well. Okay bye! <3

Data plan!

2011-06-26T11:07:00.000+08:00

Ever since the data shit, my dad helped me add on data plan yay! :D So yepp i can use freely now wahahahahahahas. :B

And:

LAST DAY OF HOLIDAYS, SHITTTT.

iPhone.

2011-06-25T00:06:00.001+08:00

Short post , update.

Sony Ericsson W995 phone crashed on my a few weeks ago.

and now i'm stuck with iPhone which has been giving me probs >_<

First was the iTunes shit. So mafan. So selfish some more, cannot bluetooth to other people the songs/photos. ):

Next is the freakin bill. My mum off-ed my 3G thingy, so by right if i try accessing internet without Wifi, i can't use it.

But apparently even when i don't use my FB app, its using up data. Just withing 4 days or so, my data is alr $185 . -.-

In the end , dad help me get data plan, lol.

Oh well okay bye. :D

Sigh >_>

2011-06-13T00:49:00.002+08:00

You guys are so so so loving to each other..why was i trying to break you two up? /;

Guess she had bad yet good points..sigh and you love her so much that when she hurt you, you didn't do anything.

Now i feel so guilty of trying to break you two up, i was so stupid...i shouldn't have done anything...

And ever since you two were okay, you've been talking differently to me alr..i hate that feeling.

It really sucks /; i don't even feel like talking to you anymore, i just wanna..leave you to her. And wish you two all the best, last long, and...just forget me.

Just let me disappear from your life.

I'm just your disaster, the one who does no good to your life.

Forgive me, forget me.

Why ? /:

2011-06-10T22:33:00.002+08:00

So yeah the two of them are okay now, congrats blahblah.

But somehow i feel...i just feel wrong.

I feel happy, yet not happy.

I'm happy cos he's happy now, and they look just so perfect in that photo.

But i'm not happy, cos...i'm afraid that she'll go all crazy again then will hurt him yet again..

Why?

Do relationships stay longer when it gets strained?

Do relationships stay longer with girls who give so much problems, rather than girls who are just sweet and caring ?

I don't get it.

As we all get older, love just gets more complicating.

All i can say is, i hope for the best for the two of you.

Back from Council Camp.

2011-06-03T14:54:00.002+08:00

Just came back from council camp, was fun yet not fun lahs hehh. Shan't talk about it, nothing to talk about. >_>

But "A" was like, super upset throughout the 3 days 2 nights of camp lor...because of her again -.- Seriously, she is so damn unreasonable.

Where got people know their boyfriend got camp then keep calling, then he never answer then she answer de?! Obviously cannot answer, cos in front of teacher what. -.-

And, promises also made like just the day before, then next day scold him for not keeping a promise that was never made? Please la, the promise wasn't that okay. Its not his fault, stop making him emo /:

But the camp also made me realise...i am of no help to him, despite talking to him every night..

I realised that when he's around "T" , he seems more cheerful when she tells him to cheer up. On the second night, when the promise incident happened, he looked for "S" , not me . And it seems like "S" talked more sense, told him things i'd never think of telling him.

Idk what am i to him, he says i'm his best friend but it doesn't seem so...

Is he giving me false hope? I feel so upset...its like, having an one and only friend who said you were his best friend, but doesn't even approach you when he's upset..

It feels like i have no friends at all now. I know he's still friendly to me and all, but....idk, idk why am i feeling this way. I really feel like telling him, "I think next time when you're upset, you can text "S". Cos i'm of no help to you, sorry.." but of course i wouldn't, cos what if that makes him sad? I wouldn't want him to emo..

----------------------------------------

"B" also. Got into trouble with "S2" for sneaking out in the middle of the night. I'm worried for the both of them, of course. Cos one is my good friend, one is my.....yeah.

Heard that it was taken as a serious case...If B gets caning, S2 would get suspension from school for awhile...and if not, BETA form. Sigh...

I should have stopped her, i was just sleeping beside her....why didn't I say no? All i said was, "If you're going out, count me out. I don't wanna risk myself getting into trouble."

But i didn't tell her not to go. Its all my fault, what kind of PDS Head am I ?? I don't even know how to discipline my fellow councillors, my friends...

Just..hoping for the best.

CONFIRMED.

2011-05-30T11:37:00.000+08:00

Okay its confirmed. I still like him.

I literally was squirming in my bed when he called me last night!

It was a less-than-a-minute call, but i was definitely smiling to myself for at least ten minutes. x]

Andand i immediately turned red the moment i saw his photo on my phone (yes, i do put contact pictures) . >_<

Oh well. That clears all my doubts about loving him still. :D

Birthdayyyy! 15 years old.

2011-05-26T22:43:00.002+08:00

To make up for the emo post last night, here's a happier one.

ITS MY BIRRRRRRRRRRTHHHHHHDAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DEAR MEEEEEE,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

:D:D:D

And here's a funny thing i saw a few weeks back:

I was in the car, at tampines mall the junction there. The pedestrian crossing showed the green man. Then i saw a girl, like maybe just reached 20s? She raaaaaaan across the road. I was like thinking, ooooo she's late for something! BUT NO.

She RAN all the way to the other side of the road. Then she stopped. SHE STOPPED IN FRONT OF THE ICE CREAM MAN LOLOLOLOL!

She actually ran across the road just to get ice cream! xD

Alright bye. :D

P.S

he doesn't know its my birthday.... ):

argh oh well, why should i bother.

not all my friends will remember my birthday.

just didn't expect he wouldn't know.

its his 2nd month with his girlfriend anyw, ha ha ha.

shouldn't expect much from him.

A day before my birthday.

2011-05-25T22:11:00.002+08:00

So yeah, exams over, results out , blah blah.. Shan't post all my results here as what i usually do, cos i'm way to lazy to run to my bag, get my handbook and run back, then type everything out. Maaaaybe i'll post it when i get my report book back.

I have a really sucky feeling in me right now . It just feels like, every girl in this world is being loved by at least one guy. Or even girls that don't deserve certain guys, still get them. Me? I don't get anyone.

I'm not being...lovesick or whatever this feeling is, i just feel lonely in this world..

I know, i do have friends around me. But whenever i hear people, my friends, talking about their stead, or even just hearing gossip and seeing photos of them , i get jealous and upset, and just..lonely all over again.

I still don't understand whats going on in my heart. Its like, my heart is fooling around with me. I feel like i love him , yet i feel like i love another him. It seriously sucks.

None of them know about my feelings. And both of them have their own..people they love. So. I'd just stand by the side.

Whats worse is that i'm surely being labelled a boyfriend-stealer, or a bitch, or anything insulting now. I hate it when she glares at me. I feel uncomfortable. I did nothing wrong...right?.

Can't i just be friends? Its unfair , i know she is being unreasonable and i shouldn't get upset and give her in and stuff..but, i can't be selfish. I keep telling him to just ignore her selfish actions and stuff. I even once told him to break up with her.

But now, i think to myself...what the heck am i doing?? Why am i doing this? I know i'm trying to help him, cos he just feels nothing but sadness. Every night, i hear a different situation, with a common thing - she is angry with him/she is ignoring him. And he is so upset. So thats why i'm doing this. To help him feel better.

But i shouldn't be doing this. Why am i breaking them up? Even if breaking up is good for him, he will just feel even more upset. I can't just break them up like that..

At the same time, i feel really annoyed when he complains to me every night.

No, not because he complains. Its because she is just making him upset everyday. I feel so irritated cos she's taking him for granted.

But why, why am i so concerned?.. Is it because he's a really close friend of mine? Or is he more than a friend to me?..

I don't understand myself..

At the same time, 3 years i've been waiting in silence. Yet i don't know why am i waiting. Not talking to him for 3 years definitely creates a huge gap between us. I can just say that i don't know him at all now. People change, his likes and dislikes i used to know, probably all changed as well. His personality probably change too. So why am i still holding on?

I feel like, i'm just holding on with one hand. Just so unstable..i don't know if i still love him. Why is this matter always so troublesome??

Sigh.

What a way to celebrate my birthday which is coming in approximately one and half hours..they don't even know its my birthday tomorrow. Maybe Facebook will just remind them. It doesn't even feel like tomorrow's my birthday. It just feels like a typical day.

How life sucks now. I pretend to be happy every single day, just to make my friends happy, just to cheer him up. But inside, i really feel upset...

I admit my friends do make me feel truly happy, the jokes, the stories they share, the funny insults...but when i'm back home, alone, i just feel..upset again.

Oh well.. shan't talk too much. Have to keep him awake for his girlfriend, better reply him fast or he'll fall asleep and get ignored by her again..

End of Midyears!

2011-05-14T12:42:00.000+08:00

MIDYEARS ARE OVERRRRR!

Did badly though, so yeah. /: Nothing much to celebrate. Oh well.

MYE coming /:

2011-05-01T00:29:00.000+08:00

Quick update:

Mid year exams are coming, gotta study. I think i'm a slacker, its like starting on Tuesday and up till now i've only studied Social Studies and English ):

So screwed.

Alright bye.

Results for SYF!

2011-04-16T23:34:00.002+08:00

So...Yesterday was our school's choir SYF.

Well i personally think we did rather well luh. :D Ms Paul didn't get angry so yeah.

The Wind: It was fine, dynamics are okay too:D

Tantum Ergo: Rather awesome too, at least i didn't go outta tune!:D

The Joiku: I think it was the worst among the other songs. Clapping parts are fine, no obvious out-of-time claps :D Only the last part, the sops went out of tune..but oh well, nevermind hahaha. :D

Okay. Two years ago, we attained a Bronze.

This year, we attained....

SILVER! YAY!:DD So yeah, improvement yay!:D

Now that SYF's over, Ms Paul won't be that stressed and so she won't flare up suddenly so often and then she'll let us sing nicer songs and then we'll have more chances to perform and then we'll enjoy even more yay!:D Hahahahaha :D

Alright, shall stop here. Bye!:D

SYF!

2011-04-11T22:42:00.002+08:00

Okay i haven't been here for quite a while, so i decided to blog a little.

Nothing much to say though.

SYF's coming, its this Friday! After Friday, Choir will finally be more relaxed, yay!:D

I found out that actually Ms Paul is really good. Only temper problems. I mean, taking a look at how we are 2 years ago and now, its really a big big difference.

Last time, we were alr satisfied with Bronze.

Now, Ms Paul actually says we have the potential to get Gold! GOLD!!

But yeah we have disciplinary problems, as in cannot concentrate + talk too much and stuffs.

So yeah i'm hoping we will attain a Gold. It'll be like, the first Gold i've ever received in my entire Primary + Secondary school Choir life! xD

Oh oh and Sports Day is coming as well, somewhere around May. I'm wondering if i should participate /: 100m run again? Or 4 x 100 relay? I don't know, i wonder how fast do i run. Rather embarrassing to let down my class if i take part in relay >_> Oh well.

Well i shall get going now, bye!:D

The worst BBQ i've ever been to.

2011-03-26T22:22:00.003+08:00

Went for Mr Shahril's bbq party today. Well, thats what ALL of us were told.

We all thought it was some farewell party by Mr Shahril. We , as in Choir members. Then i found out from Hosea that two other classes he taught before would be turning up as well. As first, i didn't feel like going cos i thought there would be so many people. But then i just decided to go, since Shane Joanne Peisi they all going.

BIG MISTAKE .

When we reached there, okay la we played on the see-saw like mad for awhile . Then we thought, Mr Shahril's doing all the bbq-ing, should we make ourselves useful? So me, Shane, Joanne, Peisi, Fung Koi , Felicia, Joseph, Terrence, Jun Ming and Sophia (basically the ONLY ONES from Choir who turned up, excluding Joseph) helped out with the bbq. Then i realised, the 3B people were just sitting at a side and waiting for the food. That was okay with me at first la.

But then i realised they SERIOUSLY were just waiting for food. Never once did they offer any help. They all just came to the pit occasionally, looked if there was any food cooked alr, took them and LEFT.

That time i was slightly annoyed. But i closed one eye. Then just after an hour or so, they told Mr Shahril they were gonna leave alr. Then Mr Shahril told them to da bao some food back. I was thinking, kay luh anyw seems like got quite alot of food, take some ba.

GUESS WHAT THEY DID. At that time, there were only chicken drumsticks, chicken wings, sausages and chicken kebab. THEY TOOK THE REST OF THE FREAKING KEBABS. ALL!! And the Choir members, we all only SHARED amongst ourselves ONE PIECE. ONE DAMN PIECE. That annoyed me even further la! I mean take just take, but at least leave some for the rest of the people who haven't eat or haven't even come can?! Wtfcuk sia!

Okay then nevermind, cos they left. Then more people came. We Choir members, were doing the bbq-ing all by ourselves, Mr Shahril wasn't even helping anymore . -.- Basically, we bbq-ed food for everyone for 4 -5 hours non-stop. NO SHIFTS. Then the people there were just taking us for granted, want food then keep asking why so long. Food chao da blame us cook lousy. Food raw blame us anyhow cook. WTF, do we look like experienced bbq-ers to you?! Some more, they kept drinking alot and draining off the drinks like mad. I tell you, i only had TWO CUPS of diluted ribena . Nothing else throughout the whole bbq. Then they kept complaining , "Why no more water??" Then they'd leave for a while. A while later, they'd come back, "Walao , still no water!" Seriously, just go to the water cooler or something can?! We are HERE busy BBQ-ING food for YOU ALL, and YOU ALL complain that there's no water and expect US to refill for YOU??

After that around 8+, more 3J people came. I recognised Grace and Lavette(SP). They came and only then, i found out this was actually 3J's CLASS PARTY. CLASS PARTY! WHY ARE WE INVITED?? It wasn't even Mr Shahril's farewell party!!

Felica then said that Mr Shahril actually ALREADY had it all planned - get Choir members here, then expect us to HELP OUT. SO MUCH FOR OUR KINDNESS! And i thought Mr Shahril was good to us! I actually thought he treasured the Choir so he invited us to this party! But NOOOO, we were tortured there! In fact, he didn't even offer us any food or whatsoever, he just complained food chao da and demanded for more food! Wtf!

After that, around 9pm, we finally gave up and left the pit, decided that we should just leave it so people would REALISE they don't have any food supply all of a sudden. Only ad 9pm did we have our dinner. In fact, i wasn't even hungry! All i ate was 1 sausage, 2 satay and 2 cups of drinks today.

Around 9.30pm, we left. Before leaving, we said bye to Mr Shahril. He didn't even offer anything to us, didn't tell us to da bao food, but instead he told us to HELP HIM CLEAR UP A BIT FIRST!

SERIOUSLY, WHAT ARE WE? YOUR SLAVES??

After that i just cleared two empty cups and a paper plate and left. ARGH. I was so tired cos i didn't even sit down, so tired that my stomach hurt. It felt like as if i just sang some powerful song until my stomach hurt, but even worse! Normally when i sang till it hurt, it would only hurt for a while. This time, even sitting down didn't help. In the car i was trying to sleep but i couldn't cos my stomach felt very uncomfortable.

Oh yes and Byran Zhu, LITERALLY CALLED US SLAVES. When we walked past him and his friend to go to a table to eat, Shane said he said to his friend, "There. those are the slaves.." Seriously, wtf! Must you look down upon us like that?! And Mr Shahril, you are the one i am most disappointed in! You KNEW how we felt when the Choir was looked down upon a few years back. But now, YOU'RE INVOLVED IN THIS! And Shane said when we stopped bbq-ing, Mr Shahril STARED AT US.

WHAT, CAN'T WE HAVE OUR BREAK? YOU WANT FOOD GO COOK LA! Complain complain, you didn't even move your butt muscles la! -.-

Anyway..all of us were pissed, probably except Jun Ming cos i think he's like used to it alr. People always use him, take him for granted. Jun Ming, do this. Jun Ming, do that. Jun Ming, help me take this take that. And Mr Shahril "Jun Ming i want a drink." And then Jun Ming would just obediently get him a drink. I seriously pity Jun Ming la! He's like so poor thing, always get used by everyone and yet get teased.

Sigh alright, long post i know. Just take it as a replacement for the past few days that i didn't blog luh. I won't even be blogging frequently anymore anyway. Bye.

P.S

I think this is like my biggest post ever, 1,059 words. Wow. Didn't know i was capable of ranting so much .

Daddy's birthday tomorrow!:D

2011-03-15T12:26:00.002+08:00

I know i haven't been updating for a long time, sorry.

But i really have nothing to talk about !

(And i'm feeling rather lazy too hehehehe xD)

So yeah......well holidays are here!

Actually, ~~holidays are here~~ TORTURE IS HERE! ):

Again, the teachers are giving us piles and piles of homework. I don't get why they like to give so much homework when they have to mark even more work . >_>

Oh well.

Tomorrow's daddy's birthday and i have no idea what to do.

I thought of buying a cake, but i need my bro and kakak to contribute too. Or i'll go bankrupt.

Bro hasn't replied my sms yet. Hope he says okay, afterall he's rich now. >:(

RIP, Pinky ):

2011-03-06T23:01:00.002+08:00

Today, Pinky died. D:

In case you all don't know who Pinky is, he's my koi fish.

My dad said quite a long time ago there was a time when all the koi fishes died. All except Pinky. He actually survived, he was the only survivor.

Then my dad bought more fishes. Then slowly they die, old age, sickness, blahblah. Until today, there were only 3 left. D:

And Pinky fell sick. My dad said its cos the water was too dirty. I don't understand, why does the water become dirty so quickly? Its like, my dad washes it on Sunday, and by Tuesday the water is murky again. Gah.

Anyw, despite being put in water with medicine inside, Pinky died. D:

So sad..And now, the other two fish are like lifeless too. They're hardly moving in the clean, clear waters. Idk why ): My dad say they're gonna die too, maybe by tomorrow.

Its kinda sad, actually..They've been around for more than 5 years. ): And now they're leaving.. Soon there will be none left, then it'll feel so weird cos suddenly, all the water splashing sounds, fish jumping and making the floor wet, will all be gone.

I know, some of you might be thinking, they're just fish ! But no, even though they're just fish, i actually feel sad when i see them die. Cos they've grown so big. Its even bigger than the fish you see in markets. Seriously, I'm not exaggerating.

Oh well..all i can do now is to hope they'll survive longer than a day /: I mean yes, they'll die eventually. But not so quickly, please. One just died today, and i just don't want another to die tomorrow. Its all too quick ):

Alright shall sleep now, got school tomorrow. Byeeee !

Bad results.

2011-02-24T22:51:00.002+08:00

Got back most of my common test results. Quite bad, i don't really dare to show my parents.. >_>

I bring back all my test papers everyday. But i'm just bringing them back and forth to school. I never once took them out ):

Well here are the results:

Chem - 20.5/25

Bio - 18/25

Physics - 7/25 (i know i know...)

Social Studies - 13/20

A-math - 20/30

MT - 41/70 -.-

I think thats all. English and E-Math not out yet.

Oh btw, i've created Twitter! :D

Oh wait i alr mentioned it earlier.

Okay nevermind, bye LOL .

--still hoping, i don't know why;

Common tests are over!:D

2011-02-19T12:42:00.001+08:00

YAY, COMMON TESTS ARE OVERRRRRR!

Gonna die though.

Kthxbye.

Twitter!

2011-02-16T19:12:00.001+08:00

So yeah thanks to Dio, i've finally created Twitter. xD

With much persuasion from her.

Cos she says she's alone thereeeee. In that little bird world.

Hmm so yeah, i thought why not give it a try.

Can follow Kevjumba and Nigahiga and MysteryGuitarMan and RayWilliamJohnson and so on blahblah anyway. :DDD

Okay bye. I should be studying!

OH YEAH, today's CT was shitty. I didn't manage to complete my Physics paper, which was just half an hour. -.- Almost everyone i asked didn't finish either. Sigh, why did Mrs Chan give us so little time?!

Next one to worry: E-MATHS.

COMMON TESTSSSSSSS ):

2011-02-15T23:48:00.001+08:00

350th post for this old blog of mine, YAY!:D

Okay i should be sleeping now and not blogging, but just wanna wish everyone

JIAYOUS FOR COMMON TESTS!:D

kthxbye.

Valentine-less! ):

2011-02-14T00:40:00.001+08:00

Hey!:D I know, its 12.40am and i should be sleeping.

Cos there's school tomorrow.

But hey, its Valentines'! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL COUPLE AND NON-COUPLES! Basically to everyone luh. :D

Valentine's-less yet again. But oh well, it isn't that bad right.

Idk.

Wish for it to happen, yet i don't know.

Nevermind, goodnight!

Primary School outing, yay!:D

2011-02-11T22:51:00.002+08:00

Just came home from an outing with Nat, Steph, Minglu, Zhuojing and Vaness ! :D

Its been AGES since i last saw them, December holiday's outing didn't happen cos none of us were free on a specific date. So yeah we just had a simple dinner together just now, and walked around Plaza Sing. :D

Really awesome. Andand we sorta celebrated Nat's birthday, which is this Sunday! We distracted her in Times bookstore while the rest of us wrote in a card which was for "Happy Birthday, you're 1 year old!" :D Heheheheheh. But still, its a card. So yeah its okay(: !

Well anyway. Hope we'll have another outing soon, i miss you all !

Oh yeah during dinner at Yoshinoya, a cleaner auntie was telling Zhuojing, "Ni ke yi ZUO JING ma?" As in, "Can you move in a bit?"

LOL then we were all laughing, cos its like, Zuo jing, Zhuojing. xD

Too bad Kezia didn't join us. Had tuition ))):

Ah well. Next time, Kez! :D

Oh yeah another thing today. I was going back home to wash up then come back out to meet Nat they all. So i took Bus 3 from Tampines, as usual. But today, when i was about to scan my card at the entrance, i realised BOTH scanners were down. Then the bus driver just told us to go in, nevermind. HAHAHAHA so in the end i got a free ride home! x]

The best thing was, at the next stop, people had to scan their cards alr. Muahahahahhah :DD

Okay, shall leave now. Goodnight!

The Green Hornet.

2011-02-10T23:32:00.002+08:00

Today, I watched The Green Hornet with Shane. It was superduper awesome, no money wasted! xD

Pretty funny and cool, the gadgets, Jay Chou speaking funny English(and sometimes sudden chinese words), the fights, the stunts, blahblah. Supernice. :D

And hahahhahaha actually, while we were walking there i was asking Shane how long the movie was. Cos if the movie were to start at 4+, i was afraid it would end late and my parents/kakak would call and i'd be screwed cos i said i "had to stay back for project".

According to what i heard, Shane said 1 hour 18min. I was like, woah so short? Hmmm then if thats the case, it should end about... 6pm. Okay lahs :DD

But after that, i realised that she said 118 minutes, not 1 hour 18min! So during the movie we found out . Then we panicked. That time, it was around 5.30pm i think. So we were like, okok we'll leave at 6.15pm.

6.15pm: Eh wtf, ending alr so exciting! okok watch this part first.

6.30pm: Omg 6.30pm alr leh!! Eh but this is super nice leh!! Okok, we watch some more.

6.40pm: Show ended. Crap LOLS. Aiyaaaa nevermind luh ! xD

So yeah we finished watching the entire movie. LOL. :D

Awesome, nevertherless!

Okay shall leave now(:

Ruler Music!

2011-02-09T20:09:00.000+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GclK1aUxZWA

awesome vid. Should watch! :D

200views, yay? :D

2011-01-31T23:06:00.001+08:00

According to my blog counter, i've reached 200 views! Yay! LOL . :D

Kthxbye.

P.S

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SAM, SAMIGO! :D

Puckew! :D

2011-01-30T14:47:00.002+08:00

So yesterday was our Seniors' Farewell Party. It was alright, i guess? :D

At first it started out really shitty. Cos almost the whole choir exco were stressed out for idk what reason. Shane i think cos she's currently under lotsa stress lahs. But yeah anyw, party ma, why stress! :D

So only Joanne, Peisi, Chenting and I were not so stessed and vexed. We were kinda partying as well, laughing like mad. I mean not Chenting. She was just silently helping out with the bbq. Okay fine, i feel rather guilty for partying and not helping out >_> I did help a little okay! x]

Well anyway, when it got darker, when everyone left except the whole exco(minus Chenting, she left early), the REAL party began. xD We all went crazy cos we were spamming the remaining water plastic bags(i thought water balloons weren't that appropriate) all the way!

Then we realised we had lotsa balloons left too so we made alotalotalotalot of water balloons. It was rather entertaining, cos the balloons were the silver metallic balloons so it was harder to burst. So sometimes when it lands on the ground it doesn't burst. Instead, it hophophops around and slides(the floor was wet) to another far end xD

Oh and dunno who suggested hitting the "no ball games" sign. I didn't, though. I just threw at Peisi and Joanne hehehehehe. :D

OH YES and then something horrible happened. >:(

We were cleaning up, also making an excuse to burst water balloons around so we would wash the floor hahahahah. Then we saw two girls come out from the function room which was just behind the BBQ pit. Then they walked to the pool, and POURED DRINKS INSIDE!

We were all like, wtf! So we went there and yep, they prolly threw sprite cos there wasn't any colour. So Terrence, Peisi and Joanne were trying to scoop out as much ice as possible. Then i think the people at the room saw us, and they were swearing at us like "Fcuk you fcuk you!"

Thats not all.

The security guard just nice was walking by to inspect i guess. And YES, i bet he thought we were the ones who poured the drinks cos we were there scooping out ice. So he stood there and kept staring at us.

Shane was so pissed she said out loud, "Eh you all don't help them clean, its not our mess so we don't touch. The people in the FUNCTION ROOM poured it so they should clean it up!"

Guess the guard heard it, but he still stood there and stared at us while we continued cleaning up. -.- Fed up with him.

He left like a long while after. And then we started insulting the people in the room. Felicia was teasing their swears, saying it sounded like a high-pitched "puckyoupuckyou!" xD Yeah we got crazy and high after that hahahahaa.

So yeah that was the end, gotta go now bye!

Fake! ):

2011-01-28T21:07:00.002+08:00

I hate how people act like they're hurt when they're not.

Today, i was with Shane, Felicia, Koi and Terrence at Simei's NTUC. Shane and I went to the chicken section to buy the frozen chicken for tomorrow(will talk about it later below, if i remember to). So i saw the chicken. And slid open the freezer door. Then there's this auntie beside me. I saw at the corner of my eye that she quickly lifted up her hand from the freezer. So i thought i hit her or something, so i was apologising like mad, like "Sorry sorry sorry!!" Then she stared at me for a second.

Then she "Owwwww!"

Like wtf, its so obvious she was acting! -.-

But still, i apologised again /:

Ah why did i even do that, i should have just yelled back at her, "Eh you weren't even hurt leh! Act what sia!"

But noooooo, i apologised. >_>

Oh well. Partly my fault anyways, i didn't think that the door would hit the auntie. OH but when i told Shane, she went to the freezer and "inspected" the sliding cover . And realised that its kinda impossible to get your finger caught. ._.

Nevermind, forget about that woman.

Oh yes i remembered, about tomorrow!

Tomorrow's our Choir's farewell party to the previous seniors. Clarissa's batch.

We're having a BBQ party at Shane's house, wheeeee ! :D

Oh but i hope they won't push me into the pool or something /: I don't mind getting hit by water balloons(i mean water-filled plastics), but not getting drenched in chlorine water.

Kay gotta go, bye!:D

Makeover?

2011-01-26T23:29:00.001+08:00

For Chinese New Year this year, i've bought a dress( its either a dress or a shirt ), a skirt, and a...footwear. I have no idea what its called. Slippers sounds wrong, shoes definitely wrong, sandals sounds weird too.

Anyway. Its like some "total makeover" for me, i mean for the past few years, i've been sticking to jeans and shirt/tee shirt, and sneakers. This time, dress/skirt/weird footwear. Why? Cos my parents forced me to ):

Kinda.

Well they said i shouldn't waste my youth wearing sneakers and stuff. And they also said young wear all these then nice. So yeah /:

Ah well. Nevermind, always good to have more clothes anyway. :D

Okay then, bye. :D

Safety switch or mafan-ness?

2011-01-20T23:21:00.002+08:00

okay short one. Superduper tired right now, have been sleeping late past few days cos of homework.

So yeah you all know about this..switch in a car, that locks the door? Its to prevent infants from opening the door while parents are driving. Even though from inside it looks unlocked, it is locked if you change the switch to lock mode.

Yep and today, i took my dad's car to school. As usual. Then he dropped me off just after the traffic light opposite school, side gate there. As usual. I was about to get out of the car when.....yes, i couldn't open the door. -.-

So my mum had to go out to open my door from the outside(thats the only way to open it), cos i couldn't go out from the other door cos it was facing the road. And guess what, my mum had the exact same problem! >:(

Then my dad pressed some button at the side of his door there and mum's door could open. But mine still couldn't open, so my mum STILL had to go out LOL. So yeah and my dad was rather frustrated cos:

1) It was at a traffic light, cannot stop there too long.

2) My parents had to go work too, so they can't waste too much time fetching me. /;

but ah well. at least i wasn't stuck inside forever or something. Or my dad sure pissed off like what. o:

Okay then, nights!

Gone for 2 weeks, sorry! ):

2011-01-16T15:44:00.004+08:00

I know, i've been away from blogging for two weeks >:(

But i really got nothing to talk about! Everytime i think of something to talk about, i forget about it when i reach home. /:

So yeah apologies to all reading this, even though i know hardly anyone comes to my blog .

And yeah thats just about it, i'm here just to update so i don't feel guilty for abandoning my blog for 2weeks heheehehe. SEE I'VE POSTED K.

KTHXBYE.

P.S

Current craze:

HAPPY NEW YEAR , 2011!

2011-01-02T14:52:00.002+08:00

First post of the year:

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2011 is here~

CHALET + COUNTDOWN!

2010-12-29T22:24:00.003+08:00

HELLOHELLO!

Tomorrow i'll be checking into a.......

No not a hotel and not what you're thinking >:( Pervs.

I'll be checking into a chalet at NSRCC for the countdown celebration! YAYY!:D

There's a party going on at the chalet on the 31st, we're counting down to 2011!

And yes, i invited some friends. Only 5 could make it though ): Aiya anyw can't invite too many. If not i'd have invited moreeeeeee :D THE MORE THE MERRIER, ISN'T IT? :D

Yepp so i'll be going there tomorrow till 2nd Jan.

Which means NO INTERNET till 2nd Jan . Or 3rd. D:

Ah well. That means i'll have to wish in advance to whoever is reading this now:

HAAAAPPY NEWWW YEAR!! :D

May 2011 be a much much more awesome year than 2010 ! :D

Seeya~

[ even though i know not many people visit my blog. Now i feel like i'm talking to myself. /: ]

Its Christmas!

2010-12-25T00:40:00.003+08:00

Just wanna say before i go to bed: (Yes i know, i should be in bed long ago but ah who cares:D)

MERRY CHRISTMAS! :DD

And a Happy New Year! xD

CHRISTMASSSS~

2010-12-23T13:35:00.002+08:00

I know i know, i should have posted when i came back to Thailand.

But i was just too lazy to come here and type >_> ! Nevertheless, Club Med@Phuket was damn fun. :D

Its like, an all-you-can-eat buffet style . You pay an amount to go there, then you can use all the facilities as many times as you want! But of course, one person is like, $1000+ . We went there cos there was an 1 for 1 offer. So its like, $1000+ for 2 adults instead of one. :D

Hmm lets see... Oh yeah the people there were suuuper friendly! And very enthusiastic. There are events happening all the time, like non stop! I wonder how the staff can tahan . I heard that at 12mn to 2am, they rehearse for the next night's performance(There's a performance EVERY night) , and they wake up at around 8am everyday. Only 6 hours of sleep!

I actually had this thought of working there in the future, but after that i had second thoughts about it LOL .

Ah well. Shan't talk about it further.

Hmmm. Christmas is coming, IN TWO DAYS! :D:D Oh and tomorrow i'm actually going to Universal Studio ! Auntie Sandy said this would be my Christmas present from them, bcos they all(my family too, remember?) went to USS when i was in CHINA.

So yeah, going with Austin Triston and Bing Rui. Sigh, only girl yet again. /:

Life's been tough without my kakak around. Have to do all the housework AND my homework as well, and having SOOOO much homework just puts me off. So i end up using the computer excessively, forgetting about my homework. (I actually rather do my housework than my homework!)

Until dad asked me one day, about how much homework i've left. And yeah, i panicked. >_>

He said he wants me to complete everything before Christmas, or i'll have to do my work during the party . I don't know if he's kidding ):

I mean come on, i've alr invited so many friends, i can't possibly invite them here to watch me do my homework right?! ):

Ah well , gotta go now. Still got work to do . And the washing machine's calling me to hang up the laundry alr. Bye!

Leaving for Thailand.

2010-12-09T22:16:00.003+08:00

Leaving for Thailand in two days, 11th - 15th Dec . Hope it'll be fun there. :D

My dad's like telling me "Go there you won't be able to play the water sports."

I don't even need to ask why i know alr. -.-

He's not gonna let me go play those water stuff unless i swim . Argh. ._.

I don't like swimming ): And i hate my swimsuit. Its sleeveless! D:

Gah. This sucks ):

Well anyw, two parties coming up! Only invited a few friends though, basically its just the whole Aviary lahs. Hehehehe . Christmas Party, and Countdown Party.

Oh but Countdown Party isn't all Aviary. Other people too, those who went for the May party. :D

Well , i thought that since the party is at the same place, why not just invite the same few people. Hahahah(:

Oh but this is way better, cos they can stayover! :D Mummy said that Aunty Lee Moi booked two chalets this time, so friends can stay over as well. So yay!:D

Hopefully more people can sleepover, or else it won't be that fun ):

Hmmm...Thats all i've gotta say i guess.

See ya, maybe when i get back from Phuket. :D

P.S

OH YEAH I JUST REMEMBERED. Fung Koi and Terence recently told me : I'm vice-head of Choir and is gonna be the Head next year. -.- Well unless Shane doesn't get into Council EXCO, which i'm sure she will.

SERIOUSLY, i'm like living my Primary school days again. In Primary school, i was the vice-head of choir as well. And i didn't really like it /: So mafan . Arghh .

I'm like half hoping Shane will be in EXCO, and half hoping she's not.

If she is, then good for her!

If she isn't, then "good for me!" /:

Sigh. My dreadful days are just beginning. Especially if Ms Paul is our conductor.

Decided to stop most of my FB games ):

2010-12-02T16:00:00.003+08:00

Well here i am again, but sorry i'm not gonna talk about my China Trip hehehh. Just way too lazy to talk about a 2 week-long trip.

All i've gotta say is that it was kinda boring, cos we just visited those... Historical places. Like the Forbidden City, some Si4 He2 Yuan4 thingy, the Confucious temple, and blahblah.

The only fun was my friends. :D:D

Some sadness within the trip thoughh, but overall...Yeah kinda fine. (:

And i realised that this trip has brought our whole class together, much much closer. Its like, i've made more friends (even though we've been in the same class for two years already hahaha). Yep its really cool to know them all better, and it seriously is fun with them. :D

Well so one trip down, one to go .

Yes, two trips in a single holiday. Wow. >_>

But it won't be thaaat long, 5 days i think.

Oh and i'm going with my family this time! With friends too, Triston Austin Vivien they all. :D We're going to Phuket, Thailand. Hope there won't be any....protests o.o

Oh yeahh another thing:

My kakak's leaving for Indonesia on the same day as i'm leaving for Thailand. She's going home for 3 weeks. While i'm only going for 1 .

Which means, housework left for my bro and I.

At first, we decided that i'd do the clothes and dish-washing, he'd do the mopping/vacuuming and cooking.

But then, after coming back from China, I found out that he's got a job. At some bubble tea shop, Shui3 Yan2 She4. And apparently, he's working EVERYDAY.

So which also means, i'm gonna be home alone EVERYDAY.

AND it also means, I HAVE TO DO ALL THE HOUSEWORK. ALONE.

?!?!?!?!

Plus, i've got homework to do! Ridiculous homework such as doing Sec1 and 2 math practice papers when i'm going to Sec3 next year, and typing out my Sec2 EOY composition piece and handing it in to my teacher next year!

I think the teachers have no homework to give us but they just want us to DO something so they're making up stupid homework for us.

Can't they just give us a break?!

Its obvious that next year, Sec3's gonna have much more homework, so why give us homework now??

Holiday = any day of exemption of work,

NOT more homework to do!!

Don't teachers get the definition of holiday? They're teachers after all, they're supposed to know meanings of simple words like HOLIDAY. >:(

P.S

Ever since i came back from China, i've decided to kinda stop playing most of my Facebook games. I'd just accept requests and close it i guess. Cos i was thinking, i should stop earlier so that when in Sec3, i won't keep thinking "My food's gonna chao da!" or "My crops are gonna die!" and i can focus on my work. See, i'm such a guaikia. :D:D

Ah well. Hope it actually works. -.-

BAACK FROM CHINAAAA!

2010-11-27T22:37:00.002+08:00

HEY I'M BAAAACKKKK!! :D

Really tired though, so can't talk much.

Overall i felt that 14 days of studying was too long a trip /:

Its actually the first trip i went to that made me miss Singapore . SERIOUS!

So yeah bye:D

Will talk more when i have the time to i guess. And when i feel like, ahahahas.

Tata~

China trip , arghs. ):

2010-11-11T22:10:00.003+08:00

Sorry, i can't be perfect.

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Okay, better take this chance to blog or i'll have to wait till 2 weeks later.

Why? Because, i'm visiting China (Beijing and Changchun) for the next TWO weeks. D: 13th - 26th November.

Yes, so i'll probably talk about it when i get back. MAYBE. Cos its like, 14 days! How long would my blog post be then?! /:

I've never been overseas this long before. AND, i've never been to a cold country during winter when its SNOOOOOOWIINGGGGGGGGG!!! :D

Well actually, i don't really like this trip cos it seems kinda too long. So mafan, pack so many things zzz. Then so cold some more, i'm afraid if i forget something(well i always do), i'd freeze there or something. Argh.

And i'm leaving in two days.

Sayonara. D:

But i'll buy souvenirs back! :D

Ohmyy. Imagine the amount of things i need to buy!

1) Aviary + Sandra, maybe ? :D (9 people)

2) Patrol Clique (5 people)

14 gifts. O: And im bringing.... $200? Wonder if its enough. /:

Ah well. Hope it is. Anyw i heard from Nick that you can bargain there, so yay!! :D Maybe i'll say like, "I buy 9 from you, then you must give me discount." :D Muahahahahahas. :D

But i'm really scared of the pickpockets. /:

I mean, they can like just come from behind and slash open your bag or something.

Or maybe i'm careless enough to give them a chance to steal my dad's camera, or my wallet, or handphone. D: Well, i am pretty careless afterall. D:

Hmm. Guess i have to be extra careful there. Hope i won't freeze either. D:

OH , and i also hope i won't come back speaking super fast like a China person. >_> I heard that going there for just 10 days can make you speak like them , and it takes around a week to "recover".

Imagine 14 days there. ):

Well then, will be back not-very-soon ! Maybe December? I don't know, see if i have the time when i get back on the 26th.

Tata!~

P.S

Wish me bon voyage! :B

COUNCIL CAMP! :D

2010-11-03T09:54:00.003+08:00

What the hell am i thinking ? No, i still love you. I love no one else but you....

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So.. I was at Council Camp during dates 28th - 30th November. Well i must say it was rather filled with awesome-ness, but also has some screwed up parts.

First day, 28th November.

wait, let me recall. Too long ago ,hahahahas.

Hmm... Oh yes, we started with a group thing, to organise an Inter-Class games. Was really boring . Like superduper boring. /:

Then, we went to the void deck of the ISH to play Softball.

NOOOOOOO, WHY SOFTBALL ! D:

Anyway. Didn't manage to win any of the groups, if i'm not wrong. Ah well, who gives a shit. Its just a game. :D

Then...Hmm. Hmm i think we did nothing else for the day then /: . We just had dinner, blahblah, took a bath and went down for supper.

Oh yes, during bathtime.

Me and a few friends namely Shane, being nice seniors, let our Sec1s bathe first. Apparently, they didn't understand the meaning of "each person should only be bathing for 5min."

So guess what? Yes, I and my group of friends got punished push ups for coming down late. -.-

But thats not entirely my point. The thing is, Tiff asked Hui Zheng to stay upstairs till everyone comes down, so she came down with us as we were the last few.

Mr Lian punished her as well.

Seriously??? Its not her fault lahs ! And yet she willingly did the punishments leh !

I really pity her. And i pei fu her as well.

I think, she can be the next next president. :D Follow her sister's footsteps, hahas. :D

Anyway. Didn't have a good sleep that night, not used to the hard ground as usual. So i kept waking up in the middle of the night. And i woke up just a little earlier before my alarm rang.

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Second day, 29th November.

I have never done such a thing in my entire life so far.

AMAZING RACE ! :D

Well of course its not around the whole Singapore. Its just around town, you know around Esplanade and Merlion those places? Yep.

It may seem like its just a small area to cover. But the teachers are SMART. They made us go to and fro, so we actually walked/ran/jogged a really large distance.

We did really well, actually. With the help of Ms Hidayah(SP), we came in first ! :D

And believe it or not, the next group came half an hour later.

That shows how far ahead we were ! :D Wahahahahahs.

Group 4 rocks!

Hmm so after Amazing Race... Oh yes it was horrible. Cos the Sec 3s came to join us for camp, ARGH.

They make so much noise you know ! D: SUPER IRRITATING.

Anyway. That night was the parents thingy, so we all sat in the Creativity Hall and watched a movie called License to Wed. It was like super familiar to me, i knew it was definitely not dejavu. I mean, where got people have dejavu for the WHOLE movie de HAHAHA.

After that, we had night games organised by the Sec3s . Not really GAMES, but just a GAME. It was a detective kinda thing. The game was called Who Stole Edmond's Socks? HAHAHAH. Ridiculous but okay lahs kinda fun.

Anyw. They only let us sleep at like, 1.30am D:

But because of the bathing shit again, i slept at 2.10am. Luckily there weren't any punishments.

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Last day, 30th November.

It was the last day of camp, so there wasn't anything on . We just had breakfast then teachers talked for a little while. Debrief , blah blah.

Then they also announced that Hafriz and Marcus Rivera were leaving the council.

And wtf, i just knew Friz for barely a week (ever since i started patrolling duty during the post-exams activities) ! As for Marcus, i alr had a bad impression of him so yeah...But its still sad for them to leave the Council D:

And yeah today, later, i'm gonna go back to school with Shane and Yew Chuan and Amelia to talk to Mr Chiang to let Friz stay. Yep we are. :D

So right now i've gotta go prepare my own lunch or i'll be late.

Yep okay, bye. (:

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Update at 8.30pm:

Well so today i went out to the movies with the Patrol Clique, heheh. :D Well, part of it actually.

Hafriz, Yew Chuan, Shane and I . Amelia came at first but had to leave cos she had a meeting. ):

Oh and Marcus (Rivera) joined us too. o.o Plus Shane's tuition friend.

We watched You Again. Someone, i forgot who, told me that it was nice and hilarious. But it wasn't as nice as i thought leh.

Quite boring lors. Siansian one. /:

Sorry eh guys, let you all watch some boring show. ._.

Ah well. Hopefully there will be nicer shows to watch.

I realised that half of my holiday will be gone .

This week which is the first week, is totally packed cos of China trip stuffs and choir.

Next week, it'll still be the same . -.-

Third to fifth week would be spent in China. Rawr.

There goes one month, sigh. /:

Sian-ded.

Basketball, basketball, basketball.

2010-10-27T22:32:00.003+08:00

Really tired right now, but felt that i ought to update my blog so yeah here i am.

Been playing Basketball for the past 3 days, idk why hahahahas.

First was Inter-CCA.

Then was Sandra's house there.

And today was after Inter-Class.

Speaking of Inter-Class games today...

It was kinda horrible. ._. We lost to every class except 2A, so we only managed to clinch 6th position. out of 8.

Ah well. 2E has little sports people anyw. Bo bian.

Alrights imma go to bed now bye.(:

P.S

Ohno, tomorrow's the last day of school D:

I don't know why but i think i'm gonna miss 2E.

My heart feels heavy D:

I can't imagine how Sec3 would be like, ohno. Die.

Inter-CCA day ! :D

2010-10-25T21:07:00.004+08:00

So i finally got to talk to you again. Why did you even ignore me since then? Was it my fault for doing that ?

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Today was Inter-CCA games day, so yay! :D

Okay actually not really yay, but nevermind.

Participated in the Basketball one.

I must say, Choir really damn slack lahs. No one participate one lor ! I wonder whats gonna happen to Choir on Inter-CCA day next year onwards.

So yeahh, i wasn't supposed to be in the Bball team but Felicia said i could so i just went lor. So for Choir, only Felicia, Shane, Chen Ting and I went for Basketball. We then combined with some of the guys from the Badminton team, Wei Heng, Bryan and Boon Wee. Cos we did not have guys.

Actually we were quite lucky luh, cos Wei Heng is a basketball player afterall. And i found out that Bryan and Boon Wee were good too. O:

I was kiiinda slacking lahs. I mean, i can't defense and i can't dribble well. So I did nothing but shoot. And my shooting today was kinda failed. Out of 6 - 7 shots, only 2 went in /:

But still, thanks to the pro-er people in our team, we actually managed to beat all the teams we battled with ! :D

Until the semi-finals. We fought with....with some CCA i forgot which HAHA. And we claimed 3rd place.

But then the umpires suddenly said we had to have a rematch, this time with NPCC which was fighting for 1st place earlier. Cos there was a calculation error. We were supposed to fight for 1st instead, not NPCC.

We then lost to NPCC for that round, so in the end still claim 3rd place. But i think, if they didn't have the calculation error, we could have gotten 2nd lor ! ):

Ah well, nevermind. At least we had a 3rd! (:

OH YES.

Today, i was taking Bus3 home as usual. I normally sit at the seat directly behind the bus driver's seat. Yeah you know, the super small seat? Cos i don't like sitting with other people. So i choose to sit there. But that seat, idk if its a one-seater or what, but its like too small to be two-seater and yet too big to be one-seater.

But i take it as one-seater lahs.

Well anyway i was just listening to music, blahblah....Then there was this woman suddenly standing beside where i was. Then she suddenly like ask me to move. Then i "huh??" and at the same time removed my earpiece from my ears, cos i couldn't hear her. In the end i realised she was asking me to move in, so i thought "Argh fine move then move luh."

LITTLE DID I KNOW SHE WAS SO FAT.

She literally SQUISHED me to the side of the bus, wtf! I got so squashed up by her such that i couldn't move my hands and legs ! And my leg got pressed against the little part of the wall that pops out (check it out when you take the new bus) and till now there's still a deep line on my thigh, wtfreak. SERIOUSLY ! If you're too fat , just don't squeeze with others can! Walaoe eh, still got other seats available, still want squeeze with me for what sia . If you were skinny i'd be fine, but you totally SQUASHED me you know!

ARGH how i hate those people ! >:(

Talent time.

2010-10-24T11:42:00.005+08:00

I think i'm a flirt. And cheap.

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Last Friday was Talent Time. A screwed up one, to be exact.

I went to school at 8am for the Science project thing. Then at 10am, i went up for Choir. 5min later, Shane, Fung Koi and I were excused from Choir by Mr Shahril. Why?

Mr Ho 出卖 us and used the new hall for examinations tomorrow. And Mr Ong had actually gave us the green light to use the new hall for that night's Talentime . So we all had to gather and re-plan almost everything again. Last minute stuff sucks. Really.

So yeah, we re-planned stuffs that had to be re-planned. Then, the contestants had to meet at 12nn for rehersals. Unfortunately, they were all late. WOW. /:

So rehersals started late, some didn't even get to reherse cos they came late.

Then, finally it was almost the time to start the Talentime.

Basically, throughout the competition, microphones didn't work properly, New Zealand students weren't paying attention, and was rather chaotic.

Then, we realised that out of 8 groups, around 4 groups did not turn up !

Plus, Taddeus(SP), Thresa and Jasmine (one group) were placed as the last group to perform cos Taddeus had violin lessons and could only rush back at 7pm.

So if those groups didn't turn up, everything would be pushed forward. And Taddeus wouldn't be able to make it on time.

Whats more is that the New Zealand students had to leave around 7+ cos they sleep at 8pm. /:

So we had to find impromptu performances. Luckily, people like Joel, Terese, and Mr Shahril(HAHAH WOW) stalled time. And finally, Taddeus came.

Unfortunately, Jasmine was super nervous cos it was her first time performing and she only took two days to learn the song Canon in D Major on piano. She got too stressed that she couldn't play well . She kept stopping at some parts, leaving Taddeus to play the violin alone. In the end, after the song, she broke down. ):

Thresa played the next song well, so yeah.

And stupidly, her friends all CROWDED around her. Don't they know that a crying girl needs some ALONE TIME? If you wanna comfort her, only one or two at a time what! -.-

So yeah but anyway their group won first prize . But she actually she didn't wanna be part of it anymore cos she said it would be a pity vote. But nevermind /: , win then win lo.

oh and another thing was that, the PA Crew nearly got punished 500 pushups for the mic problems. The thing is, i don't think it was their fault lahs! /:

Cos there was this time (i was backstage crew so i saw everything) Terese didn't switch on the mic, so they couldn't be heard. Then we asked one of the PA Crew if they could go up stage and switch it on, but he said that they cannot go up stage cos its in the middle of the performance.

In the end the teachers went up and switch it on .

And the PA crew got scolded. Like SERIOUSLY? -.-

Ah well. After that was just nothing, pack up, have dinner, then went home. Shane's dad fetched me home, so yeah thanks Shane (:

HAZEEEEEE.

2010-10-21T22:27:00.003+08:00

Short post today, cos its late and i've got nothing much to say.

Well today's haze was freaking horrible. The rain didn't help at all (if it actually is supposed to), and it remained hazy and foggy and misty throughout the whole day ! Even till now its still hazy ! ): Take a look at the sky, no moon or stars in sight, just a brown sky. Yes, BROWN.

Not black or dark blue. BROWN.

Can Indonesia or whichever neighbouring country just STOP polluting the air so much ?! ):

Its affecting our freaking environment and the people !

Its like, EVERY Singaporean smoking and blowing smoke directly at your face then you see nothing but blurriness. And smells horrible too, i hear from my friends.

I mean the smell of haze, not cigarette smoke.

I can't smell anything unusual about the air when its hazy , gosh.

But definitely, cigarette smoke is HORRIBLE. Worse than shit. /:

Okay maybe they're both on the same line, but at least shit smell doesn't kill you ! does it? o.o

But by just smelling cigarette smoke, you can become the "er shou yan" and have similar consequences of a smoker!

Like seriously wtf, we don't smoke yet we get those sickness or diseases or whatever? Its so unfair !

Why can't people just STOP making cigarettes, ARGH.

Okay sorry, was talking about haze right.

Ah well nevermind, nothing else to talk about le. Just hope the haze won't continue ):

GO TEAMJUMBA ! :D:DD

2010-10-12T16:27:00.003+08:00

Just went back to Audition to see how it is. Found out there's this..Guitar mode. O: Quite cool, i guess it'll be easy for Guitar Hero players. Hard for me. >_> And yeah, can buy guitars too, wow!

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Okay so recently i found out that there was this guy called Kevin, or Kevjumba on Youtube. And he does what Nigahiga does, so yeah i'm kinda addicted to him now too:D . just finished watching all his videos on kevjumba and jumbafund.

Anyway. Kevin and his dad(Michael) are in the Amazing Race, so YAY! :D:DD And they called themselves TeamJumba, hahahas :DD And yeah i'm like supporting them, trying to catch every episode. But nevermind, even if i miss any , i've got Xinmsn ! >:D

Yeah and i stayed up last night to watch the 11.30pm one. Well i don't have school today so i could stay up . And yesterday's episode was SUPER lucky.

TeamJumba came in last, unfortunately. Cuz at the last part, Kev's dad couldn't do the detour and he needed medical attention due to the heat( i think ) . but then he was feeling better and he said that he had to "finish what i started" . so yeah he did it slowly, but successfully, and finally went for the pit stop.

Phil, as usual, said that they were the last team to arrive, looking sad and disappointed.

Then:

"However, i've got some good news for you two. This is a non-elimination leg."

HAHAHA YESSSSSSSSSS !!!

I was like over the moon then, but because everyone else was sleeping, i couldn't yell and stuffs. So yeah i just "YESSS"-ed in my heart ! (:

Hmm but they've gotta do a SpeedBump thingy the next round. Hopefully that won't pull them down, and i reeally really hope they can catch up! :D

FINALLY, EXAMS ARE OVER!

2010-10-08T16:57:00.002+08:00

ARGH YES. EOYS are FINALLY over. Yesterday was our last paper. Today was our oral.

I was thinking of writing about each of the papers, but then because of the celebration i had yesterday, i thought why spoil the entire blog post with exams?! So yeah, SHOOO EXAMS! (:

Okay. So... Yeah i recently joined our class cell group, called the Revival(though i'm not a Christian, but yeah they say its fine!) . Sounds cool !:D

So yesterday we had a post-exam celebration ! Wheeeeeee:D And it was the BEST post-exam celebration i've ever had, like seriously!! :D

We(Sophie, Sam, Sandra, Ryan, Gordon, Nicholas and I) were released from school at about... Maybe 10.30am? Then we went to the basketball court at Macs just opposite school to play basketball. We were thinking play till 12nn so can have the lunch value meal. But reaching 12nn le they all said don't wanna eat at Macs. So we went to Tampines1 to have Subway for lunch:D .

After that, we didn't know what to do so we went to Tampines Mall's ToysRUs to play Cherades(AGAIN!) . As usual, we went all the way to the back where the prams and diapers were (LOL) . So yeah we played, blahblah...Then got chased out by the TYU manager or something. HAHAAHA. And Gordon felt accomplished cos we finally got chased out ! HAHAH!

Okay then we went to T1 again to buy bubble tea. Sam, Sandra and Gordon bought ice cream though, heheh. Then...then Sophie had to leave, cos it was already around 3pm. ):

Then idk who suggested to go to Changi Airport, so yeah we headed there! :D

Its like the first time i've been to CA for fun with friends. And i don't really know how T3 looks like, so yeah was kinda excited LOL :D

So we spent another 5 and half hours there fooling around LOLOL. We walked everywhere, and played the SLIDE ! :D the shorter one was free, longer one had to get token by spending $30 in a single receipt or something like that.

So we took the shorter one like a thousand times, slid down then go up again LOL . VERY FUN I TELL YOU. :D

Took many many photos, all uploaded at FB. But those that i uploaded aren't nice hahahas, cos i was more of playing than taking photos LOL .

So yeah we left the place around 8.30pm. Then i reached home around 9.30pm.

First time i played around outside till so late leh, accomplishment ! :D HAHAHA.

Yepp so thats it. I know i describe things that happened until like damn boring, but ARGH WHO CARES, I KNOW ITS FUN CAN LE !! :D:D:D:D

So..yeah shall post soon, hopefully.

Bye! (:

Happy Birthday to Sophie and Judy! :D

2010-09-27T23:02:00.004+08:00

First of all:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SOPHIE AND JUDY ! ((:

One year older already, muahahahahas ! :D

Wellll okay so today we went out to celebrate Soph's birthday(despite the fact that exams are starting on Wednesday) . We were like deciding where to go for ice cream. First was the ice cream cafe opp police station. Then it was Marine Parade library's Gelato. Then we came to a decision: Swensens.

ARGH WHY THE EXPENSIVE ONE ):

But yeah it was a big group so okay luh . 9 people leh ! Minus Sophie, the price is divided by 8 people ^^ .

So yeah i thought we were going there just for the ice cream. In the end we ordered pizza. Then Nick and Sophie got their free ice cream. I had two slices of pizza and a few spoons of ice-cream( freeloaded from Soph and Nick, heheheehehe. :D)

Yep we were like acting crazy there. Gordon and Sabrina went hyperly-crazy over colouring pictures. They were competing in who could colour the picture quicker LOL . Oh and there was a woman with orange skin and a brown patch on her forehead, credits to Gordon xD . Sab coloured a green panda. Gordon coloured Avatar-Man. xD

OH OH OH and when Nicholas was choosing the ice cream flavour, Sandra&I were beside him. Then he was like, "Should I have strawberry or the Stick Chewy...thing?"

Then Sandra "STICKCHEWYCHOCOLATEEE!"

Then Nick said okay then told the ice cream guy he wanted "sticky chewy....somethingsomething."

Then the guy gave him a look.

According to Sandra, he was probably thinking:

This guy must be some ladies' man or something , then he's buying ice cream for them.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA ! Then the funniest part was, when he gave the cup of ice cream to Nick, IT HAD TWO SPOONS ! LOLOLOL !

OMG Sandra and I were laughing like hell man xDD

I was wondering why he didn't give a third spoon, and i think its prolly cos only Sandra was squealing for Sticky Chewy Chocolate. HAHAHAHA.

Oh how fun it is to hang out with people like them. xD

Sophie, Sandra, Nicholas, Jutima, Sabrina, Gordon, Dionis and ManQin made my day today man. xD

And even though its not my birthday today, i still gotta thank you all for making my second-last-day-before-the-eoys a funfun and crazy day! :D

Car accident ._.

2010-09-26T14:33:00.002+08:00

Okay I didn't blog for about a week, my apologies. /:

Doubt i'll be active for the next two weeks, due to exams.

Believe i'll still screw up , so yeah nevermind ._.

Well anyway. Last week, exactly last week, I met with a car accident. Yep.

Well my dad, mum and I were in the car, on our way to my parent's colleague's house for Hari Raya party. On the highway, when suddenly my dad emergency braked.

As usual, i wasn't wearing my seat belt so i "crashed" onto my mum's seat in front of me( usually happens, so yeah.)

But then suddenly there was this impact and a "BANG" . Crashed onto my mum's seat again. ._.

Dad went "SHIT, 被撞." (translation: SHIT, tio hit le.)

Then parents went out to settle stuffs. Mum took photos of the crash, blah blah.

When they came back in, i asked what happened and it seems that it happened like this:

The first car in front emergency braked.

The second car emergency braked, in time to avoid crash.

The third car, which was my dad, braked as well, just in time.

The forth car behind us, didn't brake on time and hit us . And because of the impact, our car moved forward(despite my dad still pressing on the brake pedal) and bumped onto the car in front. ._.

So basically, we got sandwiched.

No injuries though, so lucky. Unless you count the mini scratch I had near my left eye because of my specs luh. /:

Car still repairing, coming back tomorrow i think. Still need to put up with this stupid replacement car which is super small , and it stinks of the bubble smell. You know, the one with the small yellow stick then you apply the sticky gluey thing at one end then you blow it into a bubble? Yeah that. ._.

Makes my throat damn dry la, after smelling that. /:

Well so yeah thats it, gotta go.

I NEED TO MUGGGGGGG.

Green Day woooo! :D

2010-09-18T14:58:00.003+08:00

Heheh. Nothing much to say today, but as you can see/listen from my playlist and the picture above, i'm in a GREEN DAY CRAZE mood ! :D:D

HAHA. Yeah and another thing to say is that the End of Year exams are coming and guess what.

I haven't started studying.

And here i am, wasting time on the computer.

Facebooking. Blogging. Searching and listening to Green Day songs.

And next week is Test Week. Why do i call it Test Week?

We're gonna have about 4 - 5 tests next week.

And?

I haven't studied.

So?

Screwed.

And the stupid eCareers thing. Give me such lousy and uninteresting jobs, and expect me to choose three out of those. Argh, this sucks. ):

So yeah bye. Shall try to persuade myself to study. I don't know how, but i shall. >_>

Fell on my butt ):

2010-09-14T20:02:00.003+08:00

Argh, i fell on my butt today /:

I was on my way to 7-Eleven after putting down my bag at home.

(7-Eleven has taken over my house there de minimart, in case you don't know.)

I bought Gulp, cup noodles, and mashed potato.

Then when i walked out, i realised there was this Indian guy mopping the floor with some substance that when you smell it, it feels like acid pouring into your nose. DAMN painful. /: So I carefully walked across the area, knowing that my slippers is damn frictionless.

Then, just when i past the wet area and reached the dry area, I SLIPPED. AND FELL. ._.

And the noodles dropped out of the cup and into the plastic bag ): The drink was fine, and so was the potato cos i put cover.

Then the Indian man helped me up. Awkward, but nevermind /:

Went home and my kakak helped me get my noodles back into the cup /: No more soup. ):

Come to think of it, i was kinda lucky that I took plastic bag leh. When the Auntie helped me put into plastic bag, i almost said "don't need" . Luckily. If i had said those words, my noodles would never be retrieved le. ):

So yeah now i've got a sore butt that hurts when I stand and sit. ):

Lesson learnt:

1) Must get plastic bag when buy food.

2) I ought to get better slippers.

Oh, and:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KEZIAAA! :D

Archery ! :D

2010-09-08T10:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was funfunfun ! Been a long time since i ENJOYED choir . /: Like seriously.

Well anyway. Choir Camp. We had a Basic Archery course ! ARCHERY ! :D

And i did fairly well, better than i expected, so yeah xDD But Yuqi was the top scorer luh. I was THIIIIIS close to winning her, but my last shot went out so yeah ):

Ah nevermind. I still receieved a prize anyway, for the team competition. Its a pencil, but not just an ordinary pencil. It has the flappy thingys(I suddenly forgot what its called) stuck onto it ! :D Looks damn cool lahs. :D

And yeah , pictures all on Facebook.

Hmm after archery we had to come back to school for more activities, blahblahblah... Then at the end of the day, i went to walk around the school with Yuqi. First she brought me to this place which was really very sunny but very nice cos its on the forth floor and just at the main gate there xD Nice view from above. Then when we were walking back, i found someone's PET rocket cover on the top of the new staircase ! HAHAS :D ! Then we walked walked walked, and found another FOUR rocket covers on the roof of the auditorium xD . Aha then here's the best part:

We went up the 5th level stairs(which leads to the roof), and the roof door was open! :D I guess the construction workers opened it then went for a break i guess? But anyway. Yuqi went in, i stayed out. Was kinda afraid people might come and scold. And then she suddenly exclaimed," EH ! I found Benjamin's rocket!" (errm yeah i told her about the super powerful rocket xD) So i went up and stood by the door, and YEAH it was really there! Andand, it was like at the middle of the roof, with no parachutes out. I was wondering, if it flew towards the bio lab there, how come its at the other side of the roof??

Possibilities:

1) Construction workers kaypo and brought it there.

2) Super powerful such that it flew really really high then fell onto the other side of the roof. O:

Heheh yeah. :D Never been to a roof before O: argh, should have not been a coward yesterday and went in ! D: Ah nevermind. Hopefully i'll get to see that door open once again. ;)

FINALLY, COMPUTER FIXED !

2010-09-01T17:06:00.003+08:00

HEYHIHELLO.

SO sorry for MIA-ing again. BECAUSE OF MY STUPID COMPUTER. >:(

It broke down for like, 2 weeks? ):

But yeah its finally fixed, so yay! (:

But the sad thing is that, throughout these two weeks, i had DAMN ALOT of stuffs to rant/talk/emo about in this little blog of mine, but now i've forgotten all of them cos its been so long ago. Argh. ._.

Oh but i remember one thing really clearly, cos it just happened yesterday:

PRIMARY SCHOOL CLIQUE REUNION ! :D:D (minus Meg, cos she couldn't come)

Well i've got no photos with me so just go to Facebook and check it out. :D But no comments on unglam photos, please and thankyous. >_>

Yepp well anyway, yesterday was Teachers' Day Celebration, so everyone ended school early. And thats why we could finally meet each other again :D:D:D:D

BUT HEY, EVERYONE GREW TALLER, WTF?! ):

Kez is like, 160+++ ): And the others 170+++ ):

Only Steph&I still looked the same luh ._.

Anyw. We went to E!-Hub once again. Watched "Grown Ups" . Its was freaking awesome, i tell you ! :D damnit funny. A little sick (Its PG, after all x] ), but thats what made it so funny anyway. xD

Yeah didn't really do anything else after that. Just slacked in KFC and laughed and chat and laugh and chat. And Nat brought up how Zhuojing laughed and clapped in P6, and Mdm Lim was like "Who is that laughing??"

HAHAHAHAS :D:D:D .

So yeah thats it. xDD

Buhbye!

gsoot vuergfst, nsb wub! :B

冤枉 ):

2010-08-10T09:32:00.002+08:00

Got scolded by my dad for nothing yesterday /: Kinda scolded luh .

Cos today, i'm going for the December Rains thing, right? And my mum signed the consent form a few weeks ago.

Then yesterday night, my dad asked me if i will be going back to school today. I said yes, then told him about 5pm the YOG Hui Xuan and birthday bash blahblah, then when i mentioned the Chinese play would end about 11pm(as in reach school around 11pm), he got angry and asked me why i didn't tell him earlier.

I mean c'mon, why do my parents tell each other stuffs that i don't wish to let both of them know, and when i expect one to tell the other about it, they dont?? -.-

So yeah my dad was talking to me in a raised voice. Then he went back into the room. A few seconds later he came back out, and he said, "Mummy say she have no idea what you talking about."

Wtfh?!

So i brought that paper with the info about the play into the room. The consent form was already signed and handed in to teacher, how can she not know about it?!

The moment i stepped into the room, I said, "MUMMY ITS THE DECEMEBER RAINS PLAY LA!" And THEN she "ohhhhh...." to me. /:

But then my dad still scolded me -.-

He said that next time if got events end late, must give HIM the consent form, and not my mum. Cos he's the driver(if he were to fetch me home) .

For the past 8 years, ALL my consent forms are signed by my mum ! And there ARE events that ended late.

And then he said something about disallowing me if its too late or something like that.

I kinda protested and said that it was a CHINESE play and our teacher wants us to go.

And guess what.

"I DON'T CARE OKAY."

-.-

Why is he disallowing me from everything? Why??

Happy National Day ! (:

2010-08-09T11:19:00.006+08:00

HAPPY 45th BIRTHDAY TO SINGAPORE ! :D

Oh, and Happy Birthday to Yuqi too ! (:

This year's National Day doesn't seem like its National Day. I mean, it just feels like its another ordinary day. I've no idea why. Its like, no one is talking about National Day . Maybe its just me luh, hahahs. (: Maybe everyone is talking about NDP , but i just didn't listen. x]

But yeah nevertheless, Happy National Day to all(who is reading this) . Hahas :))

Life sucks.

2010-08-08T13:57:00.002+08:00

Why am i so so so stupid?

People can play comp for the whole day, and score SUPERDUPER well.

Or maybe just like my bro - He plays comp the whole day, and his results come back surprisingly well. WHY ?

Why can people slack and get good results, while i can't? Its unfair, its really unfair..

I can't excel in piano, i can't excel in Taekwando, i can't excel in skating, i can't excel in swimming.I just quit after awhile.

I quit Taekwando cos i didn't have time anymore. I already achieved poom belt so yeah thats it. Piano. I acheived Grade5. Quit cos i didn't have time as well. Then lost interest. I just couldn't do well. I just like piano because of the nice songs. But why can't i just play them well??

Skating. Skating is fun . I had no proper lessons. I just like to skate around. WITH FRIENDS. And because no one has time to skate, i neglected my skates. I'm sorry, for wasting your money.

Swimming? I never had any interest in it. You kept reminding me that its important. I tried to make myself think that way too, but i'm sorry.. I just don't have such stamina to swim laps and learn more. I just don't have the interest.

Because of all those, I am now having doubts on trying out new stuffs. Playing the guitar, for an example. I'm worried that i'll lose interest and your money will be wasted yet again.

Maybe, maybe i have to force myself to swim.. Just to be able to go sailing with Jeremiah, Sam, and the others.. Just to be able to go Wild Wild Wet... Other water activites.... Because now, you're disallowing me from going near water.

I have never continued anything i liked since young, you say? No, you're wrong. I liked singing and look, now i'm still in Choir . I never stopped singing. Or maybe you just think that singing is nothing. Its not nothing . Its just the same as swimming, skating, or taekwando. Its an interest.

Or maybe i'm just too dumb.. You compare me with Triston and Austin, but have you forgotten that i'm not them? I am VERY different from them. I can't be like them, sporty children. They have the stamina, I don't. Its unfair for you to compare me with them. They can run, play table tennis, badminton, swim, play pool, WOW. WOWWWW. I am SO impressed.

But MUST i be like them? Why can't i just stick to my own stuffs? Must I be like them, then you'll be happy ?

Must i give up everything, my computer, my handphone..? And then just mug all day and night? And then I can come back with satisfying results?

I think that even if i give up all those, i won't come back with good results.. I'm just too stupid.. I can't sustain good results...

Primary one to three , i sustained Band1 for all subjects. I dropped tremendously after that. And Primary 6, the major exam came. PSLE. And, in the top class, i achieved just a pathetic 232 . I even did worse than those in the forth class.

Sec1 . I did fairly well. Boon Soon Neo Award. wow.

Sec2? Failing Geog, which i had A1 for sec 1. History as well. English? I topped the class for the compre section in Sec1. Sec2? Last in class.

Do you know how hard is it to accept that? From top, to LAST.

And you just blame it all on me using computer and handphone.

You were angry that i exceeded the outgoing calls. So i stopped. and now you're scolding me for smses. FREE SMSES. Why do you even give me unlimited smses when you're limiting me?

Do you really believe that if i give up my computer and handphone, i will do well?

Do you know that i come home everyday just a few minutes earlier than you do?

Do you know that I only use the comp at night, most of the times just after i finish the SHITLOAD of homework per day? And you just scold me for overshooting the 10pm rule by a little. I finish my homework at 10pm, and i just wanna use for a little while. And now you're threatening me by cutting off the internet line by 10pm.

DO YOU KNOW, that most of the time i end by 10.30pm, then go to bed? And you're saying i use till 11+ , 12+ ? How will you know? you're not even in the same room as me. The person using late at night isn't me okay, its Kakak . And she uses the comp at night because she wants to watch her indonesian show which is at night.

Must i prove to you that computer and handphone isn't affecting my studies, by mugging all day, then coming back with the same results?

Must i suffer all those, then you'll believe me, dad?

China students O:

2010-08-05T22:42:00.006+08:00

Ah, sorry for MIA-ing . :X Well yeah nothing much to talk about, except that the China students arrived in SG since last Sunday. And yes, my buddy, Zi Tong, is coming over to sleep at my house tomorrow night. I don't know if its gonna be awkward. Suspect it will. I don't know how to entertain her. I don't know what to talk to her about. Even today, she was trying to tell me about a certain ride in the Universal Studio. And i didn't know what she was talking about. She was saying "Universal Studio" in Chinese. I didn't know. Until i finally guessed it.. I felt so pathetic. Why don't I know about my country? Zi Tong was like, damn surprised . What kind of HMT student am I. I don't deserve to be there. I can't even converse in Chinese! Everytime, i get stuck somewhere just because I don't know how to say that certain word in Chinese. Its freaking paiseh la . I'm just pulling down the standards of HMT class.. But at the same time, i don't wanna go to Normal MT. I can't.. Even if i drop, i'd probably do just as badly. My chinese sucks so much, that i only know words that i learn. Which also means that if i drop to NMT, i won't even know like, 50% of the words they have learnt.

My life is pathetic. Pathetic shit.

Nothing goes well.

Geog and History dropped. Geog - Failed for the paper, but barely passed for overall. History - Barely passed the paper. I don't know about overall.

English? Speechless. Used to top the class for the compre papers. Now ? Failing/just passed. Last term, i was the second last person . Can you believe it? From top, to last? Does anyone even understand how hurt and depressed i feel ? Who can I talk to ? So what if i talk to someone about it? It doesn't help, it doesn't help..

Now, all i can do is to wait for my other results to come back . The only subject i'm doing rather well in is Science . Wow. Wow.

I don't know..I don't know..... I seriously hate my screwed up life. I have a loving family, but why am i still like that? I shouldn't be. I should be a happy girl leading a happy life . My friends around me have not-so-good family background. They're in worse cases than me. I should be feeling happy i have a good family. I am happy . But only happy because of that. The other parts of my life sucks.

Is this what you think of me? No, i don't hate you. I really don't. I am not disgusted of you or whatever.. You are a really good friend to me. Are you saying you think i've been fake friends with you for like, 1 and a half years? Why would i do that? You're like the closest guy friend i have in SHSS.. Argh, i'm sorry about what i've done alrights. But i really have no choice. I don't wanna break anyone's heart anymore... Its a great impact which i can't keep taking again and again.. I'm a jinx, you understand? A jinx.. Everyone with me gets hurt... I'm sorry... Gosh, why... I feel like crying. After reading your post...

Common Tests ! D:

2010-07-25T14:12:00.002+08:00

Argh, common tests start tomorrow and here i am, on the computer?!

I haven't even started revising !

What have i become ? ):

I'm a total slacker now , gosh. ARGH.

Confirm die next year and the following year le.

-R.I.P CHERYL TAN-

Weird things happening today? O:

2010-07-19T22:26:00.002+08:00

Hmmmmm. Some weird stuffs happened to me today. But the first one just got lost somewhere at the back of my mind, can't remember now. Ah, such great timing. Nevermind, latest one first.

I was walking back from Loyang Point with my kakak. Then this man jogged past us. As he was jogging, he turned back to stareeeee at me. I was talking to my kakak la. Then i thought, am i like talking too loudly or..? Or is he just crazy? LOL.

Then he stopped. Ohshitdidhereadmymind? x.x

Then,

Man - Minmin ah?

Me - Huh..??

Man - Are you Minmin?

Me - No???

Man - You study in the , uh, Pasir Ris Crest ah?

Me - No...?

Man - Oh, sorry you look exactly like my daughter. Sorry ah !

Then he jogged away. LOL wtf sia . He doesn't even recognise his daughter?

And even so, why doesn't he trust "his daughter" ? He asked me whether i was from PRCS. That showed that he thought his daughter didn't wanna acknowledge him as her father, LOLL . Weirdo.

But hey, Minmin is a rather nice name , don't you think? xDD

Gordon's birthday celebration ! :D

2010-07-08T21:54:00.001+08:00

Today, the aviary (all eight of us) went to Jack's Place to celebrate Gordon's birthday. Which is tomorrow ! :D Oh before i start,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GORDON ! :D

Actually its tomorrow but i'm afraid i won't be able to blog tomorrow. So yeah . xD\

Well anyway, Gordon's supposed to treat us to lunch today. But noooo, the Aviary doesn't allow birthday guy/girls to treat their friends. Instead, we treat them ! :D:D Heheh.

So yeah, we payed the bill. And Gordon . HAHAHAHAHAHA. He didn't know what was going on, so he stunned there:

-looks at manqin and dionis scrambling for money-

-looks at the 50dollar note on his hand-

-looks at manqin again-

LOLOLOL. Until they payed the bill, then he was like "wtf is going on?" LOL.

And the expression on his face was priceless man. Priceless. Blurblur, stunned look. xDDD

Hahahas oh and before i end this:

Gordon, there's a surprise waiting for you tomorrow ! :D:D Okay not much of a surprise, but nevermind. xD

Next birthday:

SOPHIEEEEEE ! :D

Back to school , sigh. ):

2010-06-28T16:57:00.003+08:00

Okay so today was the first day of school for Term 3. SIGH. ._.

First of all. Why did the General Office change place to the old D.I.C ? Its freaking small there, omfgs. I think next time if got quite a few people need to go in, have to queue from outside le. -.-

Secondly. Why the hell does MO (Math Olympiad) and SCIENCE RP(Republic Poly) appear in my timetable once again, even though we've finished it?! D:

Well the MO one was answered by Mrs Eddy today: Apparently they wanted our class to continue having 10 periods of maths per week instead of 6 periods, like the other classes. WTF MAN. 2 HOURS OF MATHS EVERY MONDAY, ARE YOU CRAZY?!

Science RP still don't know why its still in our timetable, but i shall get my answer by Friday , i guess. Don't tell me its the same reason as MO. -.-

Was i wrong ?

2010-06-24T15:41:00.004+08:00

What was I thinking??

Whyyyy?

I just...gave in..

I'm so sorry.. I don't know what was i doing..

Updated at 9.51pm:

First, to "hot fudge sundae" :

Well, thanks for today. It was really fun (: , never experienced it before. x]

And, to "strawberry sundae":

I'm sorry, but i really can't go on . This doesn't help alright. I cause you so much trouble too. I didn't expect you to react that way , and i'm really pissed . But i shall let it go, since i created this mess. I wanted to end it peacefully, but you screwed it up. I'm sorry.

Second attempt of chocolate cake.

2010-06-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

Tried baking the dark chocolate cake again today. First time was the day before yesterday , i think. Totally screwed it up . But today's one was kinda nice . :D Family appreciated it.

Apparently, some friends don't appreciate it.

Next time i shan't post on Facebook le , those photos. I'd rather post them here, let me , myself and I appreciate my attempts on my own.

My finger is healing! xDD

2010-06-16T13:41:00.002+08:00

Greeaaat news from the doctor! :D

I went back to the hospital to check today, and YES, I'M HEALING! So that splint thingy really works ! :D:D

Took an x-ray again, and realised that the gap is smaller alr. And there's a bony bridge growing from the bone to the chipped off part alreadyyyy, which means its gonna healllll~

Muahahahahas, say goodbye to surgery! (:(:(:(:

But i still need to go back on a weekly basis to keep checking, to make sure its healing. And if i'm not wrong, that means my poor mummy have to keep paying. /: Ah, never knew picking up a ball could cause me to lose so much money. ._.

Whats wrong with Mixpod? ._.

2010-06-13T12:22:00.002+08:00

Anyone got any idea what happened to Mixpod?

I can't see my playlist at times sia. ):

Emily of Emerald Hill play by Margaret Chan ! O:

2010-06-12T11:40:00.003+08:00

Went to the Emily of Emerald Hill play by Margaret Chan yesterday. Well i must say, her acting skills are reeeally powderful. :D Some parts which we all thought she'd act in a certain way was acted in a different way though.

For example:

What we thought: "-angry-RICHARD! YOUR MOTHER IS HERE."

turns into:

"-delighted- RICHARD !! Richardrichardrichard! Your mother is hereee ~"

But nevertheless it was funny and niceee. :D

Oh and we saw Patricia Mok there! O: But we only saw her at the entrance , then didn't see her anymore. ): AND i think Pornsak was there too, cos there was this stand of flowers with a message: To mama, I'm here with you! From Pornsak." HAHA we were all like, "WTF Pornsak's here too?! Why didn't we see him ?! Arrghh i wanna see another celebrity/star! ): "

xD . Oh yeah, those who didn't go for the play yesterday, you missed some things !

1) MR CHACKO'S WACKY CLOTHES. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA IT WAS SO HORRIBLY UGLY MAN :X ! But seriously, a shirt that has many many colours with a base colour of orange?! HAHA Kay Yee was telling me about the shirt, and she wanted to say it was very... 刺眼. But before she said 刺眼, i added in BOOMZ! LOLLL and then she laughed like hell xDD .

2) MY COOKIES ! D: I baked cookies(with a great amount of help from my kakak) yesterday before i went out for the play, and brought a container full of cookies out. Gordon , Sam , Sophie and I ate a few pieces and the rest was eaten by Kay Yee. She was sooo in love with my cookies that she kept asking for more and even finished up the crumbs. xD AHH I'VE GOT A FAN <3>

Oh and Royston , Ryan and Gordon had supper after the play D: I wanted to go, but my parents were fetching. They went to Starbucks ! D: i don't remember drinking/eating anything from there before ): Sad life right. Sigh. Lol well anyway, daddy gave Sam a lift home cos as usual , her dad didn't fetch her home and she told me she was gonna take bus home. I was kinda worried, cos it was already past 11pm . So yeah i told my parents to fetch her home. xD

So yeah , nothing else le .

Bye then :D !

Glogging ! xD

2010-06-10T01:21:00.003+08:00

HEY I'M STILL UP WHEN ITS ALREADY 1.21AM ! xD

Haha, i wasn't playing okay ! I was doing workkk. ):

Mr Lai made us do a poster on certain scientists. I was given Michael Faraday.

Oh btw, if you wanna create a poster: http://www.glogster.com/

Have fun ! xD

Haha. Yeah well, this took me more than 2 hours. Why? Cos 1) i was trying to look for less-chim websites. 2) I had a hard time choosing the types of textbox. xDD !

Wahahahas , but its finally done! And i must say, i'm quite proud of it. :B:B

Well here's the link:

http://xcheryll.glogster.com/ <--- Thats to my profile.

http://xcheryll.glogster.com/michael-faraday/ <--- To my glog(poster) . :D

Comment if you want(:

Byee. And goodnights. :D

I'm such a disaster.

2010-06-09T21:09:00.002+08:00

Maybe thats what i'm supposed to be... A curse. Everyone who come close to me, will get angry and sad..

Should i be doing this? Why did i even start all these?

I don't think i'm doing any good for you..

Maybe leaving you alone will do you good.

Maybe your life will turn for the better...

I don't know...

New splint for my middle finger. ):

2010-06-08T14:37:00.003+08:00

Just came back from the hospital not long ago. Welllll..

The doctors said that they would try putting this..splint on my middle finger. And my finger would be bend backwards cos currently its crooked , bending forward. So hopefully the splint will let the mini chipped off bone to come back in place.

The splint is just some.. thing, that melts in warm/hot water and can be moulded. Then a velcro with a piece of foam is fastened on the finger. The foam is to apply pressure on the joint , where the chipped off bone is.

There, this is how it looks like.

After putting on the splinter, i took an x-ray again.

However, the bone was still out of place. ):

The doctors discussed with my mum, blahblah... And then they decided to let me use this splint for a week then go back to the hospital to see if it works. If it doesn't, then... Operation lor. //: And they say it'll cause a scar D: ! Arghh ):

Yeah but for now, this stupid splint. ._. Ohhh, and i've got a letter to excuse myself from writing if the splint is there until school reopens, so yay...? Hahahah. :D But i'd rather write than injure myself luh. /:

Hmm yeah, so i've gotta go back to the hospital next week. Siannnn. >_>

Till then.

Holiday homework ):

2010-06-07T20:47:00.004+08:00

Back for another post. Haven't done this for quite long le xD , two posts in one day.

And its all because of holiday homework.

Guess what, i just printed 59 PAGES OF HOLIDAY HOMEWORK.

-2 papers for literature

-11 papers for science

-remaining for CHINESE.

!!!!!!

Still got maths worksheet lehhhhh. D:

HOW?!

Gah, i should have started earlier. Its already the 7th of June ):

I think tomorrow, i shall start torturing myself and stop slacking.

Hopefully.

Blood Test. ):

2010-06-07T14:16:00.002+08:00

So, yesterday i went to the Lim Clinic again . For the checkup . The doctor asked a whole lot of questions, and my poor poor mummy had to rack her brains to recall stuffs that were like, 10 - 14 years ago. ._.

Haha yeah, and as he asked, he recorded the answers down. I saw his writing. Urrgh, doctors' handwriting. The worst i've ever seen. Can they even understand what they're writing? LOL. Its like they write just the starting letter and the rest is a line across. Lmao .

Come to think of it, do doctors go through a course that train them to write in the same handwriting? Cos all the doctors seem to have the same handwriting. ._.

Well anyway. Had to go back to the clinic yet again today. For a blood test. D:

Hahahaha, the doctor had really weird ways of getting me 'distracted' . He told me to look away. So i looked at the calendar which had a picture of the beach. Then he told me to cough. As in AHEM luh. So i ahem-ed. When i ahem-ed, he poked in the needle. /: I thought it would be as fast as those injections we had in primary school, but it was a little longer. D: Then he told me to bend my arm so that i won't get a blue-black. O:

Okay so one down, one to go. Why?

Tomorrow's the appointment for my middle finger.

PLEASE, i don't want an operation D: For one little finger some more. ._.

Fractured finger ):

2010-06-04T22:42:00.005+08:00

Remembered that time, i hurt my middle finger? Yeahs.

Well,

I found out it was fractured. -.- And i only found out the day before yesterday. Here's how i found out:

My dad realised that its been past two weeks and my finger is still kinda swollen. So he told me to go polyclinic to see doctor.

Yeah so i went there last Wednesday, after doing the poster at Yanhui's house. Reached around 4pm. Then, the doctor made me take an x-ray, which was 10dollars. Wow /: .
Then he showed me the x-ray. ARGGHHH THERE WAS A FRACTURE D: ! Its like, a piece of my bone chipped off. I guess thats prolly why there's a 'swell' there. ._.

So the doctor told me to go hospital after leaving the polyclinic . Rawrrr, how late already?! Gah i should have came earlier. KK Hospital some more . So far away.

Went with kakak to KK Hospital. Mum and Dad met us there:D. Bro had to dabao his own dinner x] . Oh, and i didn't go to the Women's Tower. I went to the Children's Tower. Its great to be young again ~ LOL . But seriously , i'm kinda happy i went there. Cos the place so cute. Walls painted/decorated so nicely. Cartoon Network on TV. xDDD And the nurses talked to me like i'm a small kid. I feel so small all over again. :D

ANYWAY. The doctor there saw my x-ray. Then she said, " Oh I need to ask the bone doctors. Please hold on, i'll get them in." so she called the bone doctor in. He talktalktalk , then see if i could move my finger properly. Yes. Then, talk talk talk again. Then say , "Oh i need to ask my seniors about it. Hold on." Realised how similar their sentences were? /: Lol i had to walk in and out of the room . And they kept announcing my name over the PA system. Or whatever you call it. Use microphone announce to the people waiting outside can le. ._.

Yeah so the bone doctor came back, talk again. Then in the end, "I'll schedule an appointment for you 5 days later . You come back to the clinic upstairs and they'll check you again. If its serious, you might need an operation. For now , you use a buddy splinter. I think the doctors at the clinic will get you a better buddy splinter on that day."

AHHH WTFFFFF ! They made me go there, walk in walk out, wait, endure that lecture, and i just have to go home ! >:(

Oh and, that temporary buddy splinter is like this: They use a piece of gauze, put between my middle and forth finger, then use the hospital/doctor/WHATEVER tape to tape. And they say its cos if they bind the abnormal and normal finger together , the abnormal finger won't grow bent.
Okay luh, i know its kinda true about that luh. But this, can it really work??? I mean the gauze and the tape ._. ! Ah nevermind, 5 days only anyway. ._.

Yeah so after that i went for dinner at Whampoa hawker centre , then went home. The end.

:D Okay bye xD .

Oh wow, so its my fault again?! Come on luh. Call me alr first thing first complain to me about them. And i didn't even know! You say that ___ got bullied by him. And you're telling me? Why me? Because of that? And , i didn't know ___ got bullied okay. I seriously didn't know, even though i was at RP . You want thrash things with him, GO LA! Tell me for..? Like as if i can do anything! Are you trying to hint to me to talk to him about this or what? Even if i wanna talk, i can't ! I DON'T KNOW WHATS GOING ON OKAY. And, THE OTHER PERSON. He deleted you from FB. Can i do anything ? Its not like as if i talk to him then he'll add you back right.

Am i doing the right thing? Am i like, trying to be close to her because of you..? No, right...? I'm being close to her cos my other close friends are friends with her ma. And she's joined the Council, i ought to be friends with her. But everytime i see her, i am reminded of you. And everytime i see a wall post on Facebook from her to you, my heart sinks. And if i'm not wrong, you two have been together much longer than we did last time . Well , i guess she's way better than me. I can't do anything, can i? You're not even talking to me anymore. You know how awkward it is, when you say "hi" to the person i'm walking with, but don't say "hi" to me? I don't wanna make our relationship seem like enemies. I just wanna be a normal friend of yours. Like how you treat others. Like how i just met you last year.. Well girl, treasure him alrights? He's a good catch. You're a really nice girl too(: . Just know that i will be holding on still. Its hard to let go . I want to , but its hard. So i will just hold on, until someday when someone can pull me outta this.

Chalet stayover at NSRCC !

2010-05-31T19:52:00.004+08:00

Wheee :D ! Had a chalet stayover for 3 days two nights at NSRCC, from 28/05 (Friday) to 30/05 (Sunday).

28th May:

First went to Yanhui's house in the morning to do project. That stupid STP project. Then left earlier than the rest to check in into the chalet :D
Had a bbq party on that day with the Adult Friends(Well thats what i call them luh, they aren't all adults. Got children too.) :D

29th May:

It was the most awesome bbq i ever had ! I guess? LOL :D
Cos, i was allowed to invite my classmates/schoolmates along ! :D:D
Invited Sam, Dio , Gordon, Shermon, Nick Ngeow, Nicholas Yeo and Jeremiah. Yanhui was invited too, but couldn't come at the last minute. She fell sick D:

Well anyway. I was a reeeally bad host . D: I didn't know what to do , or where to go at first. And the guys kept to themselves while Sam, Dio and I kept to ourselves. But then , after a round of bowling, we talked to each other like normal close friends le :D:D .

The bowling game was fuuuunnn ~ I was second in place ! Wahahahas. :D Cos everyone kept getting gutter. Including me luh duh. Nick Ngeow got first o: .

Yeahs. Then..... Oh nothing much. We just wandered about, went to the toddler's playroom and then got chased out by some guy(LOL), then went to the playground . xD Guys played pool, girls played arcade. Yep, that boring old arcade. /:

BBQ after that. :D I think we all ate quite little though. Dunno why D: . But anyway after that , we wanted to rent bicycles. Sadly, the rental closed shop le. ): So we went back to the playground xD Nicholas Yeo left after a short while . D: When it was getting darker, Jeremiah(i think) suggested telling ghost storiessss. xD So we sat in a circle at the playground, with the perfect lighting(it was really dark, cos the lamps weren't on) and they started telling ghost stories.

Oh brb, go have dinner first. xD

Back ! xD
Okay.
Well they started telling ghost stories. I just sat there and listened lor. I didn't know Jeremiah had past experiences before sia O: ! Oh yeah hahahs, Shermon got freaked out xD . Even though he missed almost every story cos his parents kept calling him. So everyone decided to scare the freak outta him . We went back to the chalet de room. Then they off all the lights . Then, Gordon told his story....

It was about two sisters. One of the sisters was jealous of her sister cos she was really attractive. So one day, she killed her sister by chopping off her head. And it was thrown into the sea, i think. Then , a woman found the head one day. She went around the neighbourhood with the head.

First door: "Do you recognise this person?"
"Nope."

Second door: "Do you recognise this person?"
"Nope."

The third door was the sister's house.
"Do you recognise this person?"

And then Gordon scared the hell out of Shermon by doing this:

Gordon: "The sister saw the head and then she said "WO QIA SI NI !" -did a super quick action of wanting to strangle Shermon-"

HAHAHAA and Shermon yelled AHHHH and backed off xDD !
HAHAHAHA :D:D . That was freaking hilarious. xD But then our party ended cos it was already 11+ and they all had to go home D:

So my uncle used Uncle KimPeng's car to drive Shermon, Nick Ngoew and Sam home. I followed . :D First stop was Shermon's house. He was really really scared to go up alone cos he was afraid of seeing ghosts after all that scare. xD So Nick Ngeow followed him up. Heheh. Yeahs. Then next was Nick Ngeow.

On the way to Sam's house, i was begging her to stay at the chalet with meeee . And she said okay! Her mum said okay too :D So she went back to get clothes then came back with me to the chalet ~ Haha :D:D

Yeppyepp. Thats it for the day.

30th May:

Went to Sam's church service. For fun xD
Nearly fell asleep, but kept myself awake cos i thought it'd be rude to sleep there xD.

Then... Oh we went back to Tampines1 to have our lunch at Subway! , then to Jeremiah's sailing clubbbbb ~
And yesh, we got lost . Sorta. X: We alighted too early LOL . Then just walkwalk and saw Jeremiah with his little doggyyyyyy ! FREAKING CUTE, OMG. :D Max :D

Yeahhhhh, then we went sailing for around 2 hours. Then i went out for dinner with parents. Day ends. xD

Okay done. Gotta go ,bye . xD